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the sound of waves,
lapping the shore.
just like the songs you used to sing.
the gentle breeze,
caressing my face.
reminds me of you.
i see the sunset,
with your head on my shoulders.
your hand in mine,
we would have been so happy.
together.

someone told me this:

"just dun want to make _____ everything in my life
so it helps me feel better
cos if i make _____ my only aim in my life
n _____ does not repond in the manner
then i'll sad"

sometimes im just tired.

patho was good. or rather not bad lah. the typical questions of AMI, TB and PUD came out. to all those who do not understand our acronymified english medical jargon (classical presentation for singaporean doctors HAHA), here's a quick lesson.

1. AMI - Acute myocardial infarction
Simplfied english = Heart attack

2. TB - Tuberculosis
Simplified english = Tuberculosis
dont know this one pls bang head against wall and die.

3. PUD - Peptic ulcer disease
Simplified english = stomach ulcer

i think i made the most out of my post-exam time. it wasnt anything fancy, but i spent it with the people who were closest to me. today will always remain a special day. thanks. muacks.

patho in 2 days. my understanding of respi, cvs and gastro patho is still rather shaky. uhhh. i hope i spot the right topics. please come out those that i studied.

i just got news that a 2nd Rafflesian (this time a sec 3) unfortunately passed away due to leukaemia. the 1st being a sec 1 boy who passed away after badminton. its really saddening sometimes to hear the deaths of such young people. who would know what greater things they could have achieved had they stayed on longer with us. and their parents... sigh.

on a side note, you're getting better. can see the improvements already. if everything goes well you'll be back in no time, jiayou. im rooting for you. and i know that your willpower is strong enough to overcome anything if you put your heart into it. :) doesnt matter if its tiring on my part, i'll do my best to support you.

i miss puff

i think i see the rainbow.

準備が完了してから、遠くから見ます。
その時まで、沈黙は金です。

silencieux.

i woke up thrice last night,
each time with tears in my eyes.
i really couldnt help it.

just got back. and i read an article posted to our medicine yahoogroups.

Henry Molaison, a man without memories.

its quite a sad story i must say. he was a living breathing competent man sans the ability to form any new memories. since 1953. he finally died in 2008, at the age of 83. but that also meant for more than half his life i.e. 55years, he was living with absolutely no recollection of the events that happened a short while ago.

i cant imagine the day someone takes away all my memories. i probably will feel very confused when it happens. but looking at the bright side, i wont remember a thing, thus i wont be pained. not knowing something cant hurt you, emotionally. if you dont know that you're gonna die, you wont be afraid. if you know you do not know, but dont know why you do not know, you will be confused. but confusion is temporary because you cannot remember that you do not know why you do not know. it keeps resetting.

its like writing on the sand. every 2 seconds, a wave comes crashing in, erasing everything you've written.

ah. thank god for memories.

on a less sombre note, microB went unexpectedly well. hahaha. YAY! omgawd, now back to pathology. =X

damn it. so microB didnt go as well as expected. ah well, im glad its over. ive put in my fair share of effort, so i'll just wait to see the two digits, one dot, one last digit and a % sign on the Mednet results page.

im starting pathology now. COS EXAM IS ON 22ND. and its ESSAY. omgawd. 3 essay qns in 1 hr?! 20minutes each. must study the big concepts and all AHHH. i hope i will do okay, though Robbins looks horribly thick and it has a gazillion pages.

on a side note, orientation orientation! having fun? =p

it only seems apt that i have a reflection of the past year now that 2008 is officially over. i think my life would have made a good story book, filled with happiness, sadness, scary bits, stupid bits and basically everything that makes Reuben the siao Reuben today.

i just read in the papers today that nostalgia is actually good for your body. as such, i shall indulge in a bout of post-2008 nostalgia and maybe set down a few things for my upcoming 52weeks just to start my 2009 on a right note.

events.

1. NYE 2007-2008



rewind 366 days ago, i remember sitting somewhere along the esplanade bridge watching the sky light up. prior to that i was squeezing with alot of ppl trying to get to where i was. the guy to my left turned around and shouted at a bangla for pushing his gf. and a few other chinese guys also gave dirty looks to the not-so-fairer race and joined in the scolding. and i know i commented in chinese, to the amusement of strangers beside me, that whatever happens, the singaporeans will always blame the banglas for everything. black sheep.

and i will always remember that night. im sorry i took you for granted, but we learn and move on.

i was the red. you were the blue. and my favourite fireworks were the red lanterns.


2. whirlwind UK trip.



the most unplanned trip in my entire life. a 4 day trip of the 4 biggest cities in the UK. London, Birmingham, Manchester and Cambridge. including a disappointed trip to the airport the night before, inability to get onto the morning flight the next day before successfully boarding on the afternoon flight. including bringing my Snell to study at the airport.

because i had a free ticket and if i didnt use it, it'd expire anyway. i know i scored badly for anat in the end, but i brought away some very beautiful memories, with my closest church friends and their family.

London the hustling and bustling of a city with terrible transport.
Birmingham the peacefulness and silence of an old slumbery town.
Manchester the shopping city and cornwall pasties.
Cambridge the beauty of a university town, unparalleled with rich history.

my overseas family

3.mother's day.



the day everything fell apart. because it was never meant to be this way.

ironic how i broke the hearts of the two closest to me on this day. sorry


4. europe trip (Greece, Italy, Spain)



3 countries, 25 days, 3 close friends. good food, good lodging, great fun, 10GB worth of photos. squabbles, but we grew closer. the memories we shared, forever. i still remember how rui and wei kept hurrying me over every nitty gritty of the itinerary. down to WHERE we'd eat for breakfast lunch dinner. how we travelled from one place to another. and the temple of poseidon which closed after the last bus got there.

shopping in italy. the gelato in venice. the beautiful shots of the colosseum. photowhoring everywhere. bumping into fat slut gypsies who stared at us. laughing at korkor who couldnt read maps. the spanish payella and the siestas. Vueling pilots and air stewards. the beauty of everything european cept disgustingly small budget carriers (very uncomfortable). the hostels with globe trekkers and hotel with SUDDEN cold water.

sweet memories


5. Birthday



unforgettable because i never got kissed so many times in my entire life. by both boys and girls. and it seems it kinda sets the punishment forever huh. ah. i will never be late or be in the wrong dress code ever. my virgin lips O my virgin lips.

med OG + m1s. thanks to huiwen for being party organiser. =) got the OG m1s and m2s down at FishnCo glasshouse. including getting a wonderfully drawn KML for present and a tshirt from the m1s.

with rui + wei @ Hanabi. ate enough jap food to last a lifetime including neverending plates of salmon sashimi. and the food was really good. i <3 jap food.

churchies at this very nice place but i cant remember the name (thanks to zing) turned out to be Coffee club. the chairs were nicee though and the company good. thanks to the 6 of you whom i've grown up with.

and the best gift came from my sis. who made me a car out of icecream sticks and told me to get a big car and get married soon so i could drive my wife around.

my belated littleblackpuff bdae present

6. Playhouse2008, RS



playhouse was the massive project undertaken by the playhouserep yours truly. tiring but as with all productions, majorly fun. didnt get anything cept for best female supporting actress - Melody Long. but thanks darren and jiayi. i dont think playhouse could be anything substantial without the tireless effort of you two as well. of course the crew and stagemanager Shaun, Liheng and Abhi.

playhouse to me is something i really look forward to every year because its a breather from everything that we do in med sch. its a hobby and something i have an emotional attachment to, something which i personally want to do well. i hope i have the time and energy to write this year's script. ahh.

RS thanks for the invitation. :) like i said you performed exceedingly well. and i personally thought you should have won. you won me over with that song.

superman


7. Xmas



xmas was splendid. only because i had the best xmas and xmas present ever. =)

big + little green puff


As for the people, i'll thank them another day. ive learnt alot in 2008. i wont make the mistakes i've made again in 2009. 2009 will be a better year, though time will be of the essence. and i will make sure i spend time with people whom i hold close to my heart. :)

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