Monday, October 27, 2008
now i know what its like to feel
blessed. (:
take it up and put it down.
1:51 AM
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
suddenly im getting jaded. maybe not suddenly, but its about time i guess. the exams are around the corner, roughly 3 weeks? or less. minus all the games days and what not, its around 2 weeks. and im sick of studying. seriously.
we read blogs to get a glimpse of the lives of other people, a snapshot of something that happened in their lives at one point in the past. we are like gods peering into thoughts of mere mortals, a higher being observing their actions. all this supposedly subject of course to the what the blogger himself wishes to reveal.
i find this blogging thing seriously peculiar. and highly insightful. it shows a side probably not shown to others in the real world. under the (false) security of a journal, the blog sometimes feels more private than it really is. but we dont ever know who reads our blogs, maybe thats why we are lulled into this sense of security. maybe if we get raped blindfolded, the experience might be better. warped, but of a similar thought process.
i feel like im shovelling snow in a storm. the massive piles of notes waiting to be shovelled into the memory bank. never ending cos well, im IN a storm. brief respites of activities to get my mind off the books. but we still have to come back to it some day. the amount is terrifying. more stressful than being pricked by needles.
people are deeper than they show. sometimes we read a blog to get to know a person more. whether he knows you're reading it or not is another matter. but without the owner's permission, sometimes i feel guilty. it feels like im trespassing on private property. breaking into someones house and taking the liberty to walk around, look at his wall paintings, scan through his computer files. i dont steal anything. but sometimes people dont like their things to be touched or seen.
i shudnt be mumbling all this nonsense. i shud be studying. sometimes i wish i could stop time. spend time doing things that i liked. if i didnt get into medicine. but rather chose a career in teaching, maybe i would have been a happier boi? then again, i wouldnt noe. doing chemistry might be equally terrifying at the university level.
whatever the case. im hitting the books again.
take it up and put it down.
11:13 PM
Saturday, October 04, 2008
hmm, i went to play touch rugby yesterday. under the hot blazing sun from 3pm to around 6pm. gawd. it was so hot and after such a period of inactivity, i finally exercised. moved my lazy bum off the chair and got down to the SoC field for some manly fun (i was barefooted cos i didnt bring shoes. wasnt intending to play in the first place).
it all paid off. was great stuff. definitely more exciting than a jog/run kind of exercise regime. which is why i'd prefer competitive sports. all the running and stopping in touch rug is kinda good cardio in itself. made me so shagged after the game. there were a few times i just felt woozy and as if i'd collapse onto the field. but nah, i survived it. 3 games with 2 timeouts.
today im suffering from the effects of lactic acid build up? muscle aches and all. must be the body telling me to exercise more constantly. otherwise, i'll be thin but unhealthy. urgh.
had dinner at fin. havent been there for a very long time but the food isnt too bad and its served quite quickly. had this soft shell crab linguine. quite liked the tomato sauce and its decently priced. except that i got tricked. saw the CITIBANK 1-for-1 deal. so got damn excited. but it was only from 12noon to 6pm. moral of the story: read the fine print.
okay back to studying. sux.
take it up and put it down.
10:38 PM
