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the sound of waves,
lapping the shore.
just like the songs you used to sing.
the gentle breeze,
caressing my face.
reminds me of you.
i see the sunset,
with your head on my shoulders.
your hand in mine,
we would have been so happy.
together.

i watched lakehouse today. i must say that its UTTERLY illogical. my science brain tells me that everything is illogical because one cannot travel two years forward or backwards in time in the twinkling of an eye, or in this case, the putting of mail in a silly mailbox. lol. neither can the distance of 2 years be shortened if time travels at the same speed in both parallel universii, unless of course somehow time sped up, which according to einsteins theory of relativity can only happen somewhere in space, for example blackholes. lol. ugh. enough of crap.

i thought the show was very nice. other than the illogical bits, it was quite a romantic make-u-feel-good movie. couples should watch it together. and maybe i'm gonna go borrow Jane Austen's Persuasion. lol. MAYBE. i dun think ill have time to read it anw. wad i liked was the fact that the story seemed realistic to me. being able to relate to something in the show makes it all the better to watch. and i liked something kate (played by Sandra Bullock) said alot.

"whatever it is, we should always remain true to ourselves and to our friendships"

go think about it.

we celebrated addies bdae twice. last nite @ glutton's bay and today for lunch and dinner @ suntec. not too bad. the food @ gluttons bay was ok, though abit on the expensive side. not very filling. i liked the chocolate fondue thing at Haagen Dazs though. it was SOOOO good. lol. basically we sat around and talked, and addie had a funny fren, fawn, who was telling jokes about smelly short fat indian women and thais cup of corn shit. DAMN FUNNY. lol. laughed my ass off.

today watched lakehouse, went for scholarship talk (rather useless) at suntec, ate delifrance dinner and came home. this weekends fun. i'm going out tmr nite again to eat. celebrating grandma's bdae. so cool. but i'm so gonna die. not yet study and the lit week ppl are trying to murder me. ahh. take it one step at a time. at this stressful time, pimples are popping. and i needa get rid of them. hate looking ugly. nevermind. i'll look radiant soon enough. =)

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When you say nothing at all - Ronan Keating

Verse 1:
It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

Chorus:
The smile on your face let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

Verse 2:
All alone I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Old Mr. Webster could never define
What's being said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

The smile on your face let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

i'm alive when i'm around you. thanks.

today was one of the best days in my life. =) went for lunch with rui and wei at S11, then prepared for my DA RI ZI = big day. started getting butterflies already during lunch. then was all excited. actually everything turned out fine at first. at around 310pm started off my routine warmup, except that i was doing it alone by myself now. abit weird at first, but yea, two rounds around the sports hall and stretching at the back of the hall. but the problem was that i think i didnt stretch my legs long enough..

anw, since there were so little ppl, they put all 8 fencers in one poule. i fenced the first two against alvin and jingxun and won. then came jefferson the pro. was quite scared of him, though i fenced him before in U20s or U17s and tycotically won him by a very close margin. lost 4-5. got a weird point off him though. an aligne gone wrong, but i still got the point anyway. lol. ended up poking him. i feel quite bad cos when i fenced him it was quite attitude (even though i lost), as in i slashed him quite hard cos i thought he was an asshole fencer. then i realised it was cos he fenced in that certain way all the time and jingxun told me that he was actually quite a nice guy. =X

then when i fenced choonwing, i suddenly cramped up in my calf. it was damn pain lah. i couldnt stand, then i fell. cos i think i overexerted when fencing jefferson. he made me jump around like mad lah.. =X then i didnt warm up my legs properly, hence i dieded. lucky after poule stage zihao was nice enough to offer me yokoyoko. lol. so it sorta soothed the pain.. thanks. =) choonwing got 5-0 win. then i subsequently won 2 more bouts and lost the last one. it was good enough to bring me to Direct Elimination.

suay suay first one i fence was jingxun. he was on a roll in the first few points lah. it was 1 point each up to 3-3. then he started owning cos i think i didnt put out hand first. then suddenly it was 8-4. wakeup call. when i finally tried to catch up, cos it was a 13-8 or sth. i got quite a few points off him when i finally did the correct move, but he was too good lol. =X couldnt catch up in time. ended up with a 15-12 loss. but not bad lah..

jingxun met choonwing, and both fought a very close bout. jingxun's parry riposte was owning today. =X got a few million points lah. and so jingxun won 15-12 also. jingxun went on to fence jefferson and get the gold. so jingxun gold and choonwing bronze with zihao and jefferson silver.

went out for dinner at pizza hut with choonwing and the gold medallist. talked about alot of things over dinner. i quite enjoy their company. =) took 52 home with choonwing. talked about studies, bitched about the chem dept in RJ. lol. if i was born one year later, maybe i would have joined their gang for fencing. i dunno. would i? lol.

anw my fencing career ends here. though i hope i can still fence when i go army and Uni. i really do like the sport. i do hope i can continue with it...

tmr's fencing A div. maybe i'll do well. its the last fencing competition i'm going for. hopefully i'll get something.

as long as you're happy, i'm fine with anything. time cannot be turned back, neither can our circumstances be changed. i've tried, but trying is futile. and like you said, sometimes trying is not enough. clenching a fist takes strength, but learning to unclench takes even more strength. one day i'll look back and laugh at myself. young and foolish we were. society still wins. we cannot beat society. so does god. how can god be a loser? thats oxymoronic. pierce me with needles. numb me with drugs. yearning brings nothing but pain and unsatisfaction. its time for me to let go. thanks for everything. and i meant it in all sincerity.

interestingly, i've eaten three different types of cheesecakes in a single day. started the day with a mzw cheesecake. not too bad lah. at least for a first timer. if u ask me to bake a wobbly cheesecake i think i might just end up making chocolate cake instead. lol. then cedele bakery came over to our school, i think must have been some entre thing. rongsiu bought a piece of cake, and she gave me a few bites. so nice of her. =) promise not to make fun of you during lessons next time. hahaha. and my mum has a piece of cheesecake at home too. dunno from where. yea. 3 in a day.

i spotted sth that i was not supposed to see. tucked into the nook and cranny on some obscure part of the body. and if u're wondering, NO, i didnt upskirt some chiobu when she walked up RJ's LT1 stairs when she wasnt wearing anything underneath. though i must say that RJ's LT1 staircases are all good viewing galleries. the angle of climb is way too steep, unhealthy for my eyes. actually i spotted a muackz muackz bite. AHHAAH. =X go figure who.

this few weeks has been one of the darker periods of my life. theres so much to think about. complexities of life. testimonials are up around the corner. A levels loom in the background. prom. people. future. scholarships. so many thing so think. so many things to consider. i was never good @ juggling. sigh. i'll pull through soon. hopefully everthing clears up soon.

for i know not what i am doing? =X

a clown can smile.
a clown always smiles.
a clown has to smile.

the world is a facade.
the world is an illusion.
the world fades away.

life is vibrant.
life is fun with friendships.
life is worth living for people you love.

a dead clown is dead.
a dead clown cannot think.
a dead clown is numb.
a dead clown always smiles.
a dead clown is me.

new blog skin. nice? comments pls. =)

my stupid cranky phone is irritating me like shit. it doesnt register that i receive smses, so when i FINALLY do get the smses, its abit too late. i got that problem before lor, so i needa keep turning on and off the phone and hopefully it'll work. but until now, it hasnt. so i still continue.

results so far, As for Physics and Maths, C for Chem. Bio will be out next week. hopefully it aint gonna be a AABC like the prev ct, but will be better. my fingers remain crossed.

today wasnt a bad day. had a very long talk. lol. it was quite interesting to see other ppl's perspective. and i think sometimes we do need a 3rd persons POV to get a bird's eye view on the issue? i dont know, it might be helpful.

i just found out unsettling news that a certain fren in 2SO3H didnt wear underwear today. gawd. =X so gross. lol. so furry summore.

and i think my clique mates are very funny. seriously, we talk about the craziest of stufff. ARGHH. makes me feel like making a poll on my blog. lol.

i'm bored. i'm dying inside. i cant do anything to stop it. sad. thats life.

my readers are complaining too chim. maybe must write in simple understandable english now.. ahahha. all my blog entries are special lah. they definitely arent written for fun. of course they mean something rite? otherwise why write?

anw, hulins stayover was fun. slept a total of only 2 hours the entire day. so ZZZ. was dozing off during lectures and all. tmr still got Chem S. might just die.. =X lol. i think sauna is good. it opens ur pores and u can squeeze out ALL your white and blackheads after that. so shiok. and u feel so non-oily. and u see all the gross white stuff coming out. wasted ytd didnt bring my facial wash. otherwise it would be so good lah. =) then after sauna go bathe cold water = shiok. newest formula i learnt after the commontest.

i supported Nadal for tennis and Italy for soccer. dunno why also, but ok lah, i got one correct and the other one not. couldnt keep awake for soccer until the end. then i went to sleep after half time. lol. mahjong was ok. won a few, lost quite a lot. lol. but nevermind, cos i didnt use money. =)

gonna sleep now. nites.

blogs are meant to be read. inner thoughts or so YOU call it are things which you do not put up on ur blog. =) maybe i'm beetchy tonite. aint my fault, but i wanted to tell you that with a personality like yours, it really aint surprising such things happen... obviously theres a price to pay for keeping ppl at arms length. the result is not exactly pleasant but i'm sure you'd be fine. afterall, your toothpaste smile counters all. you'll pull through.

the grass is always greener on the other side. i've learnt that it's indeed true. human beings have a insatiable well of jealousy and admiration for all things beautiful. if only i could be like him. if only that happened to me in real life. we love to conjure epic fantasies and tales of charming princes and beautiful princesses with cinematic "and they lived happily after" endings to satisfy our innate and banal cravings for love, money, fame and power. yet i must add that, in the process, not only are their thirsts not quenched, it spawns a dreadful feeling of emptiness, as one begins to realise the void in their barren souls, more tormenting than before as they painfully awake into the reality they were born into. and it is a vicious cycle, for yearning and not being able to be filled leaves much more to be desired.

let us take human relationships as an example. the first and most basic, that of parents and their children. despite our living in an asian country where virtues such as filial piety are placed in high regard, how many kids have actively made a constant effort to embrace their parents, to reciprocate feelings of love, be it through helping with household chores, or simple tasks such as saying good night to their parents before going to bed. for the basic building block of human nature is selfishness, one cannot expect anything good to come out of the flesh. how so? even when a baby is born, once it realises that it can make use of crying to order its big friendly giants about the house, running helter skelter to meet its demands, it will not hesitate to do so.

just as children can take their parents from granted, so can friends. like the recent Great Singapore Sale that induced deep vein thrombosis in many shopaholics traversing orchard road, we are quick to discount the little things that others do for us and quick to cash in on the things we have done. how many times have you said thank you and meant it, not because it was an expression of politeness. courtesy outweighs gratitude. i once posted that making a frenship last between a man and a woman requires finding each other at least vaguely repulsive. however if familiarity breeds contempt, and contempt is a feeling that someone is inferior, how can one continue loving and respecting that person? love can induce chemical messengers in your brain for up to a year, anything after that requires constant effort from both parties to continue that lasting relationship. maybe thats the reason why men cheat on their wives.

in a world that is so painfully transcendental in nature, where nothing is really ever for certain, how do we ascertain which things we ought to hold on to and fight for with all our life, and which things we ought to let go and set free? maybe once again, we should look around us and instead of focussing on the patch of grass on the other side, embrace the people around us and show some love, while we still can...

4 months.

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in line with todays theme:
new jap word: tomodachi
english: friends
sentence: huili and shuxian are my tomodachi. =)

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to YOU:
life's not that depressing actually. look on the bright side of things. i know its not a bed of roses, but there's always people to share it with. well, at least i'm here. for you always. call me if u need it. i know i induce laughter =) haha. although temporal at times, but at least i know i can bring a smile to your face. smile, because you look cuter that way. and smile, because you make me smile.

hmmm. so ppl DO read my blog. hahaha. yay. i've got secret admirer for the grey matter in my head. =) LOL. tmr is tennis day. yay.

and since i'm so bored, i shall accede to huili's request.i shall start a teach a japanese word a day scheme! actually not a japanese word a day, a japanese word when i blog. the word for today is...

word: ten sai. (noun)
meaning: genius (my middle name along with gorgeous, handsome etc
written form : tian1 cai2 (same as chinese)
usage: reuben is a ten sai!

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21.august.1988
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