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the sound of waves,
lapping the shore.
just like the songs you used to sing.
the gentle breeze,
caressing my face.
reminds me of you.
i see the sunset,
with your head on my shoulders.
your hand in mine,
we would have been so happy.
together.

tmr is go batam day. i'll be in batam till next sat. i dunno if theres auto roaming on my phone, but if i dun reply to smses, u noe why. =)

mukashi, kimi ga hontou ni aishiteiita.
demo, konshyuu ni wa takusan no omoerarenai jiko wo hasseishita.
totuzen, "hoka no koibito ga iru" to itta.
watashi wa hontou ni hanei no jikan mo nai.
senban, watashi wa naiteite netta.
watashi wa nani wo machigaeta?
doushite ka ano hito no houga watashi yori ii?
moshi, watashi to tuduketa, kimi ni taishite nandemo dekiru.
shitta no toki wa nagakunai desuga, kanji shita no kanjou wa hontou mono da.
iyou ni, ima wa nan no kanjou mo nai node,
shiawase wo inoru dake ni suru.

it just hits me one after another.

when they come.

they come in bundles.

i haf a right to feel hurt.

or has that already been taken from me.

omg. i just saw don koh on tv advert for NUS Business School. wahhh. =X

today was medical checkup. got up at a gross unearthly hour. sian. my mood just keeps falling. dun mind my nonsensical ramblings. anyway it was rather uneventful, except for the blood stations. which were rather ugh.

started off with registration, who is brutally efficient. she just sat at the counter. and when she spied a potential enlistee, she would just repeat the instructions she gave to the previous one, while her head continues to face the monitor, and she types away.

eye station very normal, then came the first interesting station was the bottle and stick station. the MO just went, "take a bottle and a stick, the toilet is over there" lol. no further instructions. and he gets rather scared when ppl show him the stick too close to his face.. wahahahahahah. prolly the smell. and in the toilet there are signs that read "do not pour the urine into the sink" and "empty the bottle before you leave the toilet" lolxx.

after that was the prick finger test. you dont noe until you hear the "tkk" sound and your fingers pricked. lol. then ouch for a few seconds. then comes the draw blood station. fuck. when i first saw it i nearly died. they had to get one vial of your blooddd. damn sian. but luckily the guy drawing the blood was rather good. he kept making me laugh by telling racist jokes and before i knew it it was over.. laughter does help remove pain.. ARGHHHhh. dun remind me.

a few more X rays here and there. dental and chest. then came the ball checking station, wad else to say. =P all boys running around naked. and there was an Xmen station. where they had stuff (little circles of god noes wad) stuck to your chest and you'd be like stuck on the bed for 5 minutes while it takes ur heart beat and stuff. they call it ECG.

last station was the most useless. a series of useless IQ tests. didnt manage to complete one cos i didnt noe there was a time limit so sian. shud have just pressed option 1 for all. might have gotten 25% chance. singaporean mentality. the maths sections were easy though. =) i loved the maths section. though i couldnt solve a number sequence. DAMN IT. but it was only one and i'm quite sure i got 99% of the others correct.

i think i need to go mug. numb myself again.

and one by one they left. its always the same, aint it?

all those readers out there, its time to start tagging. my tagboard has been resting in peace for a very long time already.

i just saw siew yong's message for the batam cip trip. its so funny. the principal in charge of the batam school we're going to is called, *drumroll* Kamariah. LIKE OMG lah. Kamariah was the screen name used by Hadri in Friday and Saturday, two dramafeste plays written by azizul. =X lol. and it wasnt meant to be real. it was supposed to be mariah carey, but zul turned it into a joke, so she was named Kamariah instead.

anw, i'm so pleased with myself. there was this cute jap exchange student that shawn had. shawns a j1 A level jap student. and so he got this exchange student who will be studying in singapore. but thats besides the point. btw, the jap guys called akira or sth. =X cool name. ahh. then shawn brought him to a rehearsal of our play on saturday. then when i saw shawn todae, he told me that the jap guy said that my hair was COOOL on that day.. wahhaha. win liao. *ego boost*

oh. happy birthday brian. happy birthday isaac. =)

001. What's your name?: reubenn the cutie! =)
002. Age?: 17++++. turning 18th on 21st Aug *hint hint*
003. Gender?: i've got a prick.
004. If you were born the opposite sex what would your name be?:
umm, charissa. wait, that still IS a guy's name. =X maybe Rebecca or sth?!
005. Age you act?: take the day of the week and add 10 to it.
006. Grade?: AABC, at least that was for my latest commontest.
007. Age you want to be?: forever 18?! lol. no lah. maybe 21.
008. Righty or lefty?: both give the same amount of pleasure.
009. Single?: double.
010. Who are you with, or who do you want to be with?: *wink*
011. Have you ever been in love, if so how many times?: countless
012. How many were sexual?: all. WAHHAHA.
013. When was the last time you played truth or dare?:
fencing EXCO dinner @ marche
014. Who did you play with?: alvin the cutie.
015. What was the last dare you had to?:
take pompoms and cheerlead in front of a bunch of cheerleaders. so paiseh. read below to see the pics.
016. Do you believe you should be in love to have sex?: who cares if you're happy. lol.
017. How far have you gone?: as far as my 19 inch. ehhe.
018. Where are you?: in singapore. on the 26th floor.
019. What can you see out your window?: a wonderful view of nighttime singapore. and ai tong primary school.
020. Are you lonely or tired?: both
021. Use 5 words to describe how you are feeling: tired, sleepy, talkative, bored, kinky (i feel that all the time)
022. Are you talking to anyone online? if so who?: zw, mingren, dave sim. lol.
023. What are you doing?: doing this rather long survey
List 5 things you are wearing right now:
024. 1) specs
025. 2) tshirt
026. 3) shorts
027. 4) underwear
028. 5) watch
029. Do you smoke?: hate smokers.
030. Do you have low self-esteem?: nope. brimming with confidence
031. Have you ever been to NYC?: wads that?
032. Do you have any birthmarks?: none that i know of.
033. Do you get online a lot?: yup, every night.
034. Have you ever pulled an all nighter? not really.
035. When was the last time you skinny dipped?: uhh?
036. Who were you with?: -
037. What is a secret people would be surprised knowing?: my mums jap, that makes me half jap.
038. Have you ever looked at porn?: *winks*
039. Do you sleep with the room door open or closed? open. i cant have sex with my bolster.
040. Do you have a curfew?: nope
041. Do you have a cell phone?: -nods-
042. What name brand of clothes do you wear the most?: bibi and baba. 5 days a week.
043. Do you like taking pictures?: zi lian freak here.
044. Do you like getting your picture taken?: nt really unless i'm e photographer
045. Do you have your own pool?: genepool?
046. Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: briefs. boxers too open concept.
047. Do you have an online website/blog/journal?: yea.
048. What is the link?: goliathe.blogspot.com
049. Are you overweight?: as overweight as an anorexic.
050. Do you have a lot of ex's?: dunno.
051. What does your ex bf / gf look like?: hahaha.
052. What was the last compliment you received?: i'm witty.
053. Do you like getting dirty?: not as dirty as greasy hair charissa, bessie and zit.
054. Are you flexible?: depends on the location. in bed, yes.
055. Would you ever date someone younger than you?: why not.
056. Would you ever date someone older than you?: why not.
057. When was the last time you were drunk?: never, unlike mr mok.
058. When was the last time you went on a date?: forgot the date.
059. Do you ever cry to get your way?: sa jiao counted? lol. either that or i manipulate ppl. oops.
060. Are you the romantic type?: yess *dreamy look*
061. Do you enjoy talking about gross, disturbing things?: my favourite.
062. What do you like least about your body?: skinny. too skinny.
063. Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly?: if i had a belly, yes.
064. What about cleavage?: cleavage. i thought only girls had cleavage.
065. Is your best friend a virgin?: HAHAHAHAA.
066. What size shoe do you wear?: 9
067. When was the last time you were at a party?: cant rmb.
068. Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: got.
069. Are you more of a mommy's or daddy's child?: mummy's
070. Would you ever hook up with the same sex?: maybe.
071. How many true friends do you have?: 2 + my church peepz.
072. Who is your best friend?: rui.
073. How old are they?: 18+++
074. Do you prefer to hang out with one friend or a group of friends?: a small grp of close frens.
075. Who do you wish you were closer to?: i'm not saying hahaha
076. Who knows the most about you?: myself lor. i dunno. maybe rui?
077. Who do you trust the most?: myself again. maybe my close frens.
078. Who do you talk to on the phone the most?: cannot be myself, so rui lor.
079. Name one whose arms you feel safe in: dunno.
080. Whose house were you at last?: i think hulins.
Have you ever:
081. Spun until you were so dizzy you couldn't walk?: stupid fencing camp last year.
082. Screamed so much you lost your voice?: got. the class was very happy.
083. Played strip poker?: heheh duh.
084. Stripped to your underwear while playing strip poker?: hahaha. *wink*
085. Had a medical emergency?: went to hospital after falling off a trolley in yaohan when i was like 5 or 6?
086. Done something extremely unexpected?: like not responding when bessie pinches my butt?
087. Been onstage?: many times.
088. What's your biggest fear?: ugly ppl! maybe stupid ppl also. =X
089. Do you share a room with anyone?: no. myself
090. Scariest dream?: the day i dreamt of chiew peng.
091. What was your best dream?: heheheh.
092. Would you date some one 5 years older than you?: uhh. maybe.
093. Are you clean-shaven?: BSC ah? i'm not hairless.
094. What's your greatest strength?: that tongue + my brain = ultimate
095. What does your underwear look like?: blue.
096. Do you have any bad habits?: talking very louddly.
097. If you could hurt anybody who would it be and why?: nobody so far. maybe MANY.
098. What are your addictions / What do you love?: addicted to cuties.
099. What's your most complimented feature(s)?: uhh. brains i suppose.
100. Do you think life has been good so far?: alright. schs just boring
101. What did you do last night?: talked online.
102. Is sex an uncomfortable topic for you?: my favourite.
103. Have you ever worn makeup?: yea. performing arts.
104. How much money do you have right now?: $8 cos i paid class funds.
105. Have you ever gone three days without showering?: sick. i'm not like zit.
106. Do you have a rubber bracelet?: rubber condom?

i must say that school has become less of a place to study and more of a place to have fun. the com labs have literally turned into a dota-haven. lol. and once in a while, i visit that little haven, or some may call it hell-hole, to indulge myself for an hour or two, a quick game of -ap -sm. =) i seem to own when i use death prophet. hehe.

got back my commontest report today. i must say i am rather pissed. under conduct, i got GOOD, which is like SO totally not GOOD at all. the rankings are as such: 1. Fair 2. Good 3. Very good 4. Excellent. and like so many ppl in class got Very Good and Excellent whereas i only got GOOD lor. so pissing rite. then i went to ask jeanne tan why, then she was like, oh there are many more chances to improve. wtf. bleh.

ohh. i understand quantum physics. the photon dunno-wad effect. so i've gotta catch up on two of my other notes for bio, medical and food biotech. then i'm on par already. need to start on my electrochemistry, soon. =) soon is the key. ahah. very well. we'll see what tmr holds. ending sch early, so i think will be quite fun.. =)

mmhm. i dun stalk girls with big arms.. =X i only stalk girls with big arms who want small legs? heh. thats what i heard, at least from my fren.

its beeen damn long since i blogged. this week is gonna be hectic week again. its one week to production. i've got rehearsals on wed (tmr), fri (vesak day), sat (i wanna sleeeeep damn it) and like the next mon, tue, wed, thu and fri.. AHHHH~!!! so much for being in only one scene. but nvm lah. i think its fun. and i'll get to watch the whole play, hopefully.

meanwhile ive got a pile of hmwk stacking up. and i finished ONE gp essay todae. so proud of myself!! =) yayyyy! and friday is BBM day. i hope MR confirms it. then we can all go his house and watch. then sat got exco dinner treat @ fishnco. sooo exciting. =) this week will be fun, but tiring.

thats all. off to do some work.

my favourite song when i was very young. and i remembered that my dad bought a CD of love songs JUST for this song for me. =X

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Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx

Oceans apart
Day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice
On the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
I see you next to never
How can we stay forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted
All the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter and I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh can you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance, but in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaance

[Instrumental Break]

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
(I'll be, I'll be right right here, oh waiting on youuuuuuuuu)
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I'll be right here waiting for you
Oh, I love you
Oh whatever it takes
Whatever you do
Where ever you go

I'm never leavin' you (I Will Be Waiting)
I'll be right here waiting, for youuuuu oh oh, youuu

i cant solve sec sch maths problems without using differentiation!! arghh. wad a failure.

today i learnt magic tricks! it was dave sims civics elective module. hes nice. let me join despite my module not being with him. =X maybe next week i go see ganhup dance. apparently bessie says hes can dance quite ok. but haiya, bessies abit warped and shes a biased die. so cannot trust her. anw i performed it in front of a classmate, then it was quite successful. shall train to be a pro magician. lol. i'm SOOO into the performing arts.

while SUPPOSEDLY studying for my stuff in the library yesterday, i came across alot of funny stuff. trivia stuff actually. in fact, not funny, just abit weird.

Trivia 1: do you know that guys have their second finger shorter than their fourth finger?

Explanation: that is due to levels of testosterone while in the womb. cos guys have balls and balls have testosterone and testosterone makes ur fourth finger longer. so girls have both either equal length or their second finger longer. start measuring.

Trivia 2: do you know that the length of ur 4th finger then shows how "emotionally inclined" you are? this is for guys only.

Explanation: if your fourth finger is slightly longer than ur second, then you are more likely to be emotionally inclined. lol.

Trivia 3: do you know that gays can spot other gays more easily than non-gays?

Explanation: they didnt really give a scientific answer for this, but apparently its some.. gaydar thing. they conducted a test to identify gays just by looking at photos, then the gays could spot the other gays more easily. maybe its like.. sexual selection or sth. or mating calls. apparently, its through the eyes, and the gaze. zhunrui can confirm this. wahahaha.

Trivia 4: cracking your knuckles will give u osteoporosis, arthritis and all those bone diseases.

Explanation: ok this is obviously untrue. =X it just the release of gas, not farting, really quickly when ur joints move. thus it doesnt cause any of the above. so you're safe. and so am i. =X

i can never understand the intricacies of the four letter word. ren shi jian, qing wei he wu? a cliche, but true. i dun wanna think anymore. brains werent meant for depression. live for the moment.

mood: 2moro - shao le.

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