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the sound of waves,
lapping the shore.
just like the songs you used to sing.
the gentle breeze,
caressing my face.
reminds me of you.
i see the sunset,
with your head on my shoulders.
your hand in mine,
we would have been so happy.
together.

class party! =) hahaah. out of which only 1/3 of the class turned up. nvm. at least our clique ALL THREE turned up. was so happy. met charissa at like city hall mrt and we went down.. the most fun of course was our clique gift exchange. hahaha.. charissa brought the most interesting prezzie. it was an issue of FHM with a pack of playing cards, then she had a little bottle of absolut vodka. some citrus flavoured one.. so when u drank it, it kinda burrned ur throat, very nice feeling.
then there were the chocs which were super nice... so it was a very EVIL gift. but very funny.. then rongsiu bought choc + some 10 bux gift voucher hidden inside.. and i got them some black butterfly earrings.

so since it was FHM. i got charissas prezzie. SOO fun.. we played quite a lot of stuff there. there was a pool table, which we played doubles, me + charissa vs benjy and rongsiu. i think i hit in all the balls except the black one, which was hit in by charissa. not bad. we won.. haahah. =P then after playing bridge, charissa made ME drink the whole bottle down. in one mouth. she was hoping i'd turn tipsy. nahh didnt. only a bit pinkish. but nothing else.. lol. it was an interesting feelingggg. =PPP oh and next year we're organising some clique outing to some kinky place.. charissa's planning. ahahah.

fencing today in the afternoon before i went for class party was OK. though i thought i could have done better. quite a lot of upsets. at least 3 in my opinion. first was the round robin. i was fencing round robin against zhengyi, kwanrui, changhong and weiwei. to my disappointment, i didnt win EVERYONE. lost blardy 5-2 to kwan rui cos he kept parrying and getting the damn points. that was the FIRST upset. and so i got 3 Vs (V stands for victory on the score sheet). zhunwei got 3Vs also cos he lost to me. but his indices i.e. Hits given out minus Hits received was higher than mine.. so he was ranked overall SECOND as compared to my THIRD. as in after the round robin stage.. was ok with that, cos it was only preliminary, not final.

then came the direct elimination. first up to fence was rui.. =X lol. fenced him and yea.. beat him. then zhunwei fenced anrong and trashed him. not bad.. so zhunwei proceeded up the ladder and came to fence ME. cos i beat rui also. well i fenced him.. and beat him too. 15-2. i'm very proud of my achievement. and so i moved up to the finals. on the semifinals was zhengyi vs alvin. alvin has always been the number 1 seed so far, as in most consistent. but this time zhengyi upset the score at 14-14 to take the game at 15-14. SECOND upset.. i was fencing zhengyi. and USUALLY i win him.. cos in the poule stage i won him also. but haiz.. fell for his feints in the first half so he was up 8-2. damn hard to catch up after that. but in the second half, tried to overtake but still lost 15-9. ACK. just have to be contented with my second seed position. STILL VERY PISSED. BUT I'LL GET OVER IT. ARGHZ!

nites.

ok. =) i just got back from pekky the yingsze's house after RP PPP. kinda dismal turnout but heck. too many also not fun. got so many ppl like crowding around where got fun rite. it was like from one: pek, jerrine, jean and me. roadrunners: sean d, liyana, cc, js, shib. pistachios: xin ling, aysuria and cheryl. quite fun. had pizza and alot of food the whole night. just eating and munching away. a great way to grow fat. =)

we played pictionary. i realised RP ppl can only act but cannot draw. =X terrible. hahaha. they didnt wanna play charade. so it was inter-play games. so lame rite. we lost tho. ahahha. the lowest score among the three. shumin was helping out pistachios and partly cos i think she BROUGHT the pictionary set, she knew more words than anyone else and was just HOLLERINNNGGG away synonyms. lol. pistachios won. quite fun. then we just sat around and talked and played i've never. such a silly game..

well. tonight's been fun. tmr we're having class party. dunno whether fun anot. bleh. and silly cat is making us pay. i dun care. she better use the class fund. those who cant make it is at their own expense. silly things. =X

oh before pekkys house, went down to queensway to look at our fencing jackets. bleh. its actually quite ugly. but i dunno lah. i think i shud get it since i'm an exco member. and its 32 bux. quite ex. considering that i bought so many jackets already. ack. and.. oh yea. i showed mok my xmas shopping result. one long sleeved shirt i bought for 25. he said not bad. and my whole family say nice!! =) i very happy. ahahah.

spent a shit load on clothes this year. but heck. its gonna be my last year spending. might as well spend as much as i can lor.. =) ehehehe. good job. yup. i've got fencing comp tmr. wish me all the best. hope i can get some good results for novices.. ahhh. sigh. think it'll be fun but its gonna be a mad rush. =(

the rate at which my blog stagnates causes dengue mosquitoes to breed. sigh. MOH made me clear it up. i'll blog about christmas i suppose. hmm. i just came back from puyuns house stayover last night. quite fun. we went orchard the night before, on xmas eve, to experience the traumatising experience that we experienced the year before. lol. we ate seafood platter at fish and co and there was the weird musician who was so frenly to us. wonder why... must be i too shuai.

anyway, then we trudged down to orchard, which was, as per normal, filled with throngs and truckloads of banglas. u never see them around. not in that amount any time in singapore, maybe during deepavali in Little India. but the number of them is WOAH. utter madness. they were thronging orchard road. and this year we were smarter. we didnt stay for the countdown, lest get mobbed cos we dun have the last train home. and zing explained the rationale behind all that foam spraying, esp in groups. it was the idea of DE-INDIVIDUALISATION. makes much sense. thats how mobs work. the idea of everyone having a spray can in their hand and dressed in the same outfit empowers them to do evil. ie spraying ppl. =X

anyway, we decided to take a walk from the fish and co at ps to orchard mrt. so i was brave enough to take the main route and the rest of them took the sidewalk. i mean like.. if u come orchard to see xmas. be prepared to be sprayed lah. its all part of the fun wad. =) so yea. i wasnt disappointed. at first was still quite ok. then kana sprayed in the hair, face and whole body. lol. so terrible those ppl. and they laughed. =X but yea. thats the fun part of xmas. but there was all the shoving and all outside wisma atria. so terrible. so many smelly banglas. eeks.

yea. i DID reach my destination in the end. after much shoving and pushing and i met jerrine and xtine on the way there. they were in the crowd shoving and pushing with all the banglas as well. such brave girls. lol.

mmhm so far. i've received a few xmas cards here and there. one from mok. one from charissa. one from trier. one very surprised one from sarah ong. who was my RMUN mate two years ago.. never seen her for so long. but shes so thoughtful.. gosh. must meet up with her someday. =) and i cant rmb the rest who gave me.. kinda little. but its the thot that counts i suppose. and i got a few prezzies here and there. some very cute ones.. =) shall go on an xmas shopping spree tmr again.

and next week is party week. sigh. when will i do my holiday hmwk?

its been eons since i've blogged. but not much has happened since the end of mindef. well i went iceskating, went to watch kingkong, got to know a few bitches, who were actually staff at METRO Paragon, named these bitches after greek alphabets and made a few nice frens @ metro.

so basically what we did at metro was, sit at a booth, and say this line when people walk by: "excuse me m'am or sir, would you like to make a freewill donation of any amount to the kids in cambodia. then you can get this free cute animal magnet and all the vouchers over there" *points to board on my right* usually they get turned off at the front bit, but upon hearing the part abt the magnet, they'll ask "is it any amount?" then realisation kicks in that they can do charity and get some benefit out of it, SO they will then donate. disgusting pieces of shit.

on to more interesting things. there were the staff at metro. who were more or less bitches. the duty managers etc. some would come down and bark at us, saying dun put handphone on the chair, should be more proactive. like blardy shitheads that they were. so we named a few. there was a short puny midget woman, whom we called alpha. why alpha. she was NUMBER ONE for bitchiness. alpha-bitch.

then came along beta. cos she was the second we saw. she sorta became nicer after we saw her a few times, so shes not really a bitch, just a beta. lol. then there was gamma. gamma is some dunno-what-nationality who stayed in USA for a while, so she had this terrible accent. rumours were that she complained. either her or OMEGA. guess why OMEGA. cos shes really fat. and disgusting colour sense. the last day she was wearing this pink dress thingy, that made her look even fatter and more disgusting. a few days before she wore cyan, my favourite colour. even so i couldnt bear to set my eyes on her. =X

then got to know a few other temp staff. jennyfer, ashlee or ashlyn. dunno. cant really rmb. but yea.. thats her. and other metro staff who were nice enough. one filipino one played the price is right with us, so she was called the price is right. she even helped us buy underwear for a bdae boi. =P ahahahaha. cheaper mah. then another was the chomel one, who said the rjc guys were really frenly. and a plump malay woman who was very frenly also. helped us with the purchase of some chomel xmas necklace. =)

that marked the end of our metro stint. not too bad. but quite an eyeopener abt the behind the scenes that happens in departmental stores. all of them have this sticker to stick on the stuff. so when u pay at the cashier, the cashier scans both price tag and the salespersons tag to allow metro to see how much they've sold. quite a competitive and backstabbing environment just to sell more. and who benefits? METRO. how silly the staff can be sometimes. haiz. i'll never work there. NEVER.

yesterday marked the end of our MINDEF Internship. a real mix of feelings really. these are people who have spent the past 8 days with you. yet u noe that in the near future, you arent gonna be seeing very much of them. kinda heartbreaking. as quickly as the friendships that we have are built up, they must torn down as quickly.

as i was telling lester, life in singapore isnt at all conducive for friendship. primary school kids are too naive to make lasting friendships. in secondary school, 4 years breeze by. even up till sec 2, there is a constant change of classes and nobody can say with 100% faith that they'd be in the same class in sec 3. and it is only in sec 3 and 4 do you REALLY go and make frens. and by that time, its a bit too late. 2 years + loads of mugging for Os, how much can u accomplish. and can u say that u'd get into the same jc or class or lecture group etc considering that jc has a few million classes. jc classes have no need of class bonding, ppl are hi-bye friends there. so the frens that you make are all gone in 2 years. then u join the army, another 2 years of BROTHERHOOD frenship, and poof you go out into the work place, forcefully removed. its only in the office that u get to make frens, but the frens out there are all politicians, working to their own advantage. how can we then make true friends, innocent and pure friendship.

i realised the trend that politics and true friendship can never exist together. it is never until politics is removed that true friendship can flourish. a perfect example would have been this mindef internship. if all of us came to this internship with a conflict of purpose, i.e. out of the 23 of us, only one could be a MINDEF scholar and everyone was there to outdo each other, life wouldnt be that simple. similarly this is reflected in our JC life. but because there wasnt any such selfish motivation, i could say that the friendships made were rather pure. that is why i think i treasure all the frens, but still, its gonna be an uphill task maintaining them.

well i realised the difference between a journal and a diary. a diary merely records events, whereas a journal reflects and thinks through the events and writes down the reflections of the person. this shall be a dianal. =)

the events at CMPB arent really that worth mentioning. it was what we did after that that was interesting and memorable. at the CMPB building, we had a series of talks on leadership. nothing too interesting. after that we went for LAN. haha. even tho i have not played CS for a few years. cos i played dota and TFC, i still trashed them. my frag:death ratio for iceworld was 7:1. not bad ahh.

then we met up with the other guys playing pool, and went for dinner. it was at this indian restaurant. and they were celebrating some festival thingy. so it was a vegetarian buffet, and the amount u wanted to pay was as ur deemed fit. not bad. but it was vegetarian. ack. not very much to my liking. after that we went down to the esplanade there, down to marina to bowl.. but in the end we didnt bowl, and went to play pool instead, a few games. the first game was a blast. after lester cleared like 2 balls, i cleared the rest until the black ball. but that was the only game worth talking abt. i lost the other few thanks to my useless hitting. =X

halfway thru, most of the ppl left, leaving the four of us, lester, raimi, chee hoe and myself. after that we went off hoping to play LAN cos someone was itching. not me. duh. but there wasnt anyone playing @ the LAN shop anymore, so we decided to go home. luckily in time for the last train. took a really long walk to the city hall mrt station. ended up having to follow this girl and hoping with our fingers crossed that she was going to the mrt station cos we were sorta lost in the giant shopping mall. =X

eventually got to the MRT, got on the train, and got home.

i miss this people in this attachment group the most. personally, this has been a great breakthrough for me. i think that i've really been myself in this group. no restrictions. nobody to judge me for who i am. i just let go. it was a great feeling knowing that there wasnt anybody breathing down ur neck saying that u shouldnt have done this or that etc etc. it was once again the free reuben that hasnt existed for a very long time. a breather. after being kept in a stale little room for so long.

i missss all of ya..

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mmhmm. just bathed and finished mindef attachment not too long ago. felt like blogging today, because both yesterday and today was a day with many memories. and its these memories that i wanna preserve so that when i finally look back at my life maybe at the end of j2. when i finally get to reflect and see what has been driving me on, i can proudly say that i've got to know a bunch of fun loving great frens during the at least S$100k MINDEF attachment.

yesterday: attachment at DSTA and DSO.

we arrived at the DSTA place damn early. around 950am. we were even early cos the programme was scheduled to start at 10am. but due to some security issues, i think the presenter had to like cut off bits from his ppt slide etc, thus it dragged till 1040am before it began. meanwhile, i was Lester Tan from NJC and lester was being Reuben Foo. ended up blowing some silly little wet umbrella plastic coverings to turn them into mini-UAVs. lol. nah. balloons.

the whole day wasnt very interesting except for the story telling. yesterday marked a great leap forward in the lives of all the mindef interns. it was a story telling day. i.e. some guy would give a scenario, for example, a dead naked woman was lying in the middle of the corn field holding a stick of straw. so why did she die. in the course of the "game", we would have to ask a series of yes/no questions and hence logically deduce the reason of death etc. there were many scenarios, including some tuna fish eating, seaweed feeling blind man, gobi desert etc.

nothing else was appealing. just the interaction and the menatal stimulation seemed to keep us alive the whole day.

today: attachment at some experimental lab and MINDEF HQ

what marked today as spectacular was the fond memories that i'm gonna be narrating. mok didnt come today cos he felt that he wasnt gonna feel well today. in the morning, after arriving at the SCME labs, we went to play counter-strike, or the likes of it, as part of warfare and tactical simulation by the SAF. kinda cool. =) didnt get top frag nor bottom, so i was somewhere in the middle.

interesting thing was tt there were so many bus rides, so we ended up turning it into a joke telling day. we had tea break, then headed to mindef HQ for lunch. of course there was another story telling session etc, this time was quite challenging, but eventually managed to find out as well =)

ate $2 laksa for lunch. =X lol. had alot of ham (cockles) so i decided to donate them to my hungry neighbour next door. at mindef was a series of discussions etc, which i am not allowed to tell the specifics, lest u see me in the orbituaries tmr, or as some blogger sued for revealing secrets under some secrets act. the funniest part was all the cranky stuff we did during the presentations. we kept trying to stick stickers on each others back without them knowing. it was so funnyy. esp when ppl didnt noe and the fact that frens could hackstab you and you backstab them without either party knowing.

ended up with lester havin stuck one on me long long before i knew on my collar. then i never found out. and i decided to bet with him that he couldnt stick it on me. damn it. when i eventually took it off, had to go to jessica to tell her that she was damn chio and i loved her. lol. so paiseh.

they bus dropped us off at Bt Gombak MRT. then we went for dinner @ the food court. after which, we proceeded to play ARCADE! it has been so long since i played. exchange 2bux worth of 4 coins. kinda ex looking back, but it was great fun. played air hockey. and lol. we lost 8-10 to lester SINGLEHANDEDLY. woah. then we played table soccer, me and dave beat him 7-5. =) racing i got 2nd. and we played spot the differences in picture, signing off as SIU, otherwise known as Special Inclinations Unit. =P

went back on the mrt with lester and had a long talk with him. about girls, guys. lol. its been a long time since i've gotta talk like that. and it just kinda tells me how much i've been missing. that maybe i've been too cooped up with things around me, that i've bever tried making other frens? i dunno. i think i can talk to a certain frequency of people, and its kinda rare finding ppl of the same frequency.

its just so hard to find people who can accept you for who you are. when u're too nice, ppl say ur hypocritical and fake. when ur nasty, they dun like it. frenships are as fragile as crystal wine glasses. valuable as diamonds. to be able to get people whom u can talk to and interact with with such ease and comfort is not easy to find. and i'd say i really appreciate all my close frens out there.

but as i was showering, i was thinking alot. i dunno. i kinda feel so lost and hopeless suddenly. sometimes its never your fault. sometimes choices that were made were never within your control. held in the hands of the one people call almighty, you've never had really much a say in the decision making process. and people are bound. by the norms of society, by the restrictions of religion. sometimes i dunno who i am. and i only live to be loved.

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