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the sound of waves,
lapping the shore.
just like the songs you used to sing.
the gentle breeze,
caressing my face.
reminds me of you.
i see the sunset,
with your head on my shoulders.
your hand in mine,
we would have been so happy.
together.

just got my shitty shitty results. maybe not that shitty. but shitty comparitively to those 11A1s. u noe what. i actually was kinda disappointed i didnt get the STUPID phone call in the morning. but to those who got it, i think all of u deserved it! =) so a big fat congratulations to ALL 8 of you guys~! namely:

1. Hongyue
2. Chorkiang
3. Bingshao
4. Eric
5. Jiangyan
6. Liangyi
7. Rui
8. Wei~!

man. u guys deserve it for all the hard work u've put in for the Os i guess. all u geniuses out there better not forget me when u become successful one day. ahahhaah. as for me, i got only

9A1s and 2A2s.

the two A2s came from higher chinese and jap. which was kinda expected for me. cos i guess, those two were my weakest subjects, so i wasnt really unhappy abt it. and i was kinda expecting some kind of B or C for my jap. did i say that i dreamt of a C on my result slip?! ahahaha. so scary. yupz. but i still got all distinctions so far. =) not too bad lah.

sigh. maybe if i worked a wee bit harder. my photograph would be taken too. with you. and you. and them.

the day of reckoning has come.. the time for us to see whether this genius will get 11A1s or stun the nation with his top score of 54/54 pts. and he's been discussing ways to shock the world with his perfect score. either through the bungee-jumping off the westin stamford, or causing a tsunami by jumping into the sea. impaling urself on the esplanade isnt too bad either.. or even just jumping off the podium such that ur ghost can haunt RI for life.. hahahaha. =) fun yea?

theres nothing much for me to say. just wait, watch, listen, collect. after which it would be either plan A i.e. as mentioned above. or plan B. give a smile. and be happy with my score. or plan C... cry and cry some more. and then just.. die. or fade into oblivion. surprisingly i'm so calm and peaceful the night before. i'm not even feeling anything. and O level results. .are like. so. distant. sigh. i dunno. issit overconfidence. or has the numbing effects of tests and exams hit me so bad that i've lost all sense of excitement at the hearing of getting my O level results?

anyway. all the best for tmr ppl!

woah. busy busy week. so busy that i didnt even have enough time to come online to blog or check my mail. lol. 63 new email messages. wow.. i'm popular. and by the end of dramafeste and today, i've had like a few million barrages of SMS. i'm just so hot. and irresistable.

this whole weeks been a stressed up busy week. thank goodness dramafeste is over. but it has been fun while it lasted. now i'll patiently wait for the results to come out on monday before life goes on. it better go on like that i.e. me staying in RJC continuing my 2 years of JC education. i'm resistant to change. and if i have to change. i'll be rather unhappy. :(

dramafeste day 1:
ok. screwd up the whole thing. energy was low. the curtains closed. everything was wrong, light cues bad. sound cues mixed up. things that just didnt come on. it was basically a shitty show. and we were probably the lousiest among all the 5 faculties that performed. after which smriti hollered at us, and i guess, we sorta realised how stupid we were on stage. and were determined not to do the same thing the next night for dramafeste. was so tired that night cos i slept @ 1230am. felt bad making all my frenz watch such a lousy performance. :(

dramafeste day 2:
thank goodness it was the best show we ever put up. i think the energy there was great and i was sweating and streaking all over. it was SOO tiring and voice consuming. anyway, i think it was really great cos we all did our best and put in every ounce of energy we had just to make it our best performance. like smriti said, the most important thing was to put up a good show. doesnt matter if we win or not, but at least we wouldnt leave the place feeling all shitty and down cos we could have done better, i.e. like the first night.

then came awards. was kinda disappointed the best (in my opinion) few plays didnt win it. namely either med fac or arts fac. it was a surprise that engine won best director and best play. like OMG. that directors actually good??! and i cant comment on how they acted cos i really did not see them act, so i cant be so sure. then best script went to ZuL's Saturday. best actor was Hadri as kalamariah and best actress xin ling as ah mui. both are really good. and i must applaud them for their wonderful acting! =)

oh yes. a fight with my maths teacher. i must say i fucking hate her. she doesnt want me to do maths tutorial during maths tutorial class because she wants me to listen to what i ALREADY have learnt in secondary school when shes teaching. for goodness sake, i wasnt even fucking talking or whispering ANYTHING to ANYBODY. i didnt even disturb anyone. but she obviously wasnt happy that i wouldnt listen to her because it was so fucking boring and wads the use of re-learning the things u've already learnt. i think i've not done anything wrong and if she continues with her nonsense i'll get my dad to write a letter of complaint. just wtf is wrong with her. shes threatening to give me white slips. i'm gonna talk to my CT abt it. i think even my CTs better than she is. bitch. whore.

BEEE-SY days this few have been. so i've not been blogging. or rather.. no time to blog. and yup. i've been having dramafeste rehearsals for like 24 hours a day. ok that was exaggerating. but yea. i've been sleeping dramafeste, eating dramafeste, and even dreaming dramafeste. thats life 1 week before a production. nothing but dramafeste.

i had interact camp 2 days ago. but it wasnt so much of a camp i guess. it was basically first night being stuck at dramafeste rehearsal. then after i finished. went for a quickie.. (a BATH not.. sex =P) then went to watch two scary shows in LT2. namely shutter and the ring (english version). i must say the shutter director has a quirky sense of humour and it was a BOO scary film, not a psychological scary film. so i guess, wasnt THAT scary larh.. at least it had a storyline. but it was. dark. and disgusting.. the ring. we didnt watch alot of it. but it wasn't scary. supposed to go for a nightwalk, but cos we were so late and there were so many of us, i didnt get to go.. :(

slept that night. i must tell u. classrooms are terrible to sleep in. there are so many mosquitoes all over singapore now that somehow i keep on getting bitten. thru out the nite i was scratching my leg nonstop and it was itching like mad, unlike the PEEEG sleeping next to me on the pink pig pillow, which happens to be borrowed from me and which i borrowed from one of the dfeste guys cos its a prop. sleeps through anything and everything. except the STUPID fire alarm that woke the whole world up at 5.10am, just when i was sleeping real nice.. GRRRR. it just rang for no stupid reason. it must have been elango changing shift.

next day = more rehearsals = skip more of interact club camp = not camp anymore. i spent more time with the dfeste cast in two days than my interact club grp. sigh. tech run in LT2 which was freezing like a freezer, making all of us feel like ice cubes that wanted to wrap ourselves around the curtains cos they were the warmest things around.. :X after breaking camp @ around 545pm. went to my grandmothers house for dinner. woah i was so tired and in such a bad mood i just.. ignored the whole world. and ate my dinner in silence.

left. went home. slept. woke up. church. came home. ri. back to more dfeste rehearsals. and yup. my day ended like that.. =) those interested in coming for dfeste. here are the details:

Date: 24th and 25th of February (Thu/Fri)
Time: 7.00pm
Venue: LT2, Raffles Junior College
Tickets: $4 (Thu) and $6 (Fri)

anyone interested can sms or email me or just contact me. i would suggest going down on friday nite, but its kinda selling fast. so grab ur tix quick. plus friday nite is judging nite, so MAYBE the performers will perform a WEE bit better. =) hahaha.

woah. busy day today.. short but busy. chem pract today was SO screwed. i mean, whats worse than not getting the number for the water of crystallization for Ba(OH)2 when its supposed to be such a straightforward expt. i realised that my chem practicals are getting screwed for their accuracy. my previous titration got a 4/10 for accuracy. my water of crystallization for Ba(OH)2 was 6, when it was supposed to be 8. ended up changing all my answers and stuff. eew. so cheater.

i think it was cos i placed the hot testtube that we just heated on the table. then smart me went to place a nice blue towel over it.. because i thought it would cause it to cool faster. then i was happily doing calculations, until i realised that the heat from the testtube actually charred the blue towel! and like. omg. there were brown bits sticking to my test tube and that screwed the whole results cos i needed to measure the weight of the testtube and stuff.. yea. =( must try harder next week.

physics lectures boring as per normal. went for lunch and dinner with rui wei russell and aloy. ate super unhealthy food. went for hissoc. quite shocked to see yihan there. i thought he didnt sign up, but apparently his name was there. then yea. ok lor. not too bad. claudia was the vice prez with matthias. familiar names. they participated in RMUN the year i participated in.. claudia was UK GA. so.. vivid. matthias was India GA i think.. yupz. they've not changed a single bit. but fortunately, or unfortunately they dont recognise me anymore. so =)

went for fencing. oh yea.. then for HSSRP. hahahaha. it was a 3 man group that signed up. then after that, they had to kick somebody out of the group. ahahahha. like WOW. so nice. but it doesnt concern me. doesnt matter. after fencing. my thighs were aching larhh.. as per all fencing sessions. so boring.. and hot in the indoor gym. went for dinner @ KFC and wei was having gastric. after which they went to get prezzies for their sis' bdae.

hulin's coming back this friday. bird's back. hmm..

tired. another dead tired day. received 3 gifts today. no.. two. a nice little glass cup, actually a wine glass with sand and sotones inside + sweet smelling thingy. i think its like the leftovers from our Graduation Dinner stuff. nvm. its the sincerity that matters. its quite nice though. yupz.

then i also got a nice little mini-red shirt. its not a shirt shirt, but a little red shirt that i can put my hp in. yupz.. quite nice. can hang around along.. i love it. =) ahhaha. all were from rui. supposed to be some happy frenship week prezzie which he prolly gave the whole world. lolx.

ehh. didnt do much today. tmr will be a damn long day. its so fun going for lunch with girls cos we always talk shit during our way to the lunch venue. today we were laughing nonstop abt revada food and stuff. and how grapes could start walking. i.e. there were cockroaches in the grapes.

dfeste rehearsals are getting intensive. dfeste is next friday... i'm so scared. i hope i do well. i so hope i do.

Happy Valentines Day to all out there! May all be blessed with love, lots of love and even more love till everyone's filled up to the brim, overflowing with love. =) hahahaha. today's been a fun day. rather exciting. and since i didnt blog yesterday cos i was too tired, i shall write a WEE bit longer for today. hopefully, ppl will spend a WEE bit more time on my blog, enuff for me to see them tag. =) ahahah.

Anyway, this morning. my neighbour gave me a little note for Vdae. oh well. shes really nice. well vdae is for frenz and doesnt necessarily mean that only the people who are in a lovey dovey relationship can give each other presents lor. then when i reached my k'cove. ppl started giving out chocolates and stuff. hey. i wanted to buy like chocs for ppl lor. but i decided against it. cos was too lazy. but felt damn bad cos the whole world was giving me sweets or chocolates. lolx

went to class. actually it was LT1. then we exchanged prezzies within our clique. kat gave us a daisy/ginvera/chrysanthemum. dunno which one it was. but yea.. it was one of the 3. i chose an orange one! =) charissa baked cookies i think. then yea.. not bad tasting. rongsiu's one was quite nice also. it was a picture of the 4 of us in RI canteen, printed out then she wrote on the back. and gave each of us a magic bean + star shaped stirrer. nice yea?

lectures were damn boring. sat with them for 2 lectures. then migrated next to mok (rui) after that. gave him his cute seal stuffed toy. hrrmph. hope he liked it. i think it looked cute. lol. then gave wei a little penguin. i spent like a few hours looking for those larh. damn. they better treasure it. then rui lent me his silver hand bracelet thingy. oh. then i gave them a condom each. ahhahahaa. so lame. it was supposed to be funny. nothing dirty intended. i kept the last one. its in my cupboard. i hope my mum doesnt find it. :X

went for lunch with ET + aloy + 2moks at pastamania. talked nonsense until 350pm. left for jap. went for dfeste rehearsal. met the moks for dinner again @ S11. rui was saying i could have the bracelet for the day. LOL. i'll return to him tmr. then on their way back to the MRT station, they saw rongsiu and denise. talked to them for a while before leavin. i sat down with the 2 girls, started talking, then saw shumin. so she sat down. and we all started talking. until around 930pm. then we left for home.. bathed and am bloggginggg.

i love valentines day!

just came back from yet another busy day. dfeste rehearsal. mahjong@anrongs house. OG outing. wow.. whole day damn busy. and REALLY tired. dfeste rehearsal was normal. mahjong was the first time this year.. didnt play @ all thruout CNY. OG outing.. we went to suntec's NYDC to have dinner. quite cool. =)

Been thinking of you all night,
Never knew if you thought the same.
I know my love is true,
To you i'll say, je t'aime.

Monday's February 14th,
Love is in the air.
Will i be getting roses,
Chocolates, or i-love-you teddy bears?

It doesnt matter really,
what you actually wanna give.
As long as it's from you,
I'll be glad to receive.

Even if its just a hug,
Or a peck from you to me.
I will be so delighted,
My heart all fluttery.

Is this all wishful thinking,
Or just a fantasy?
Or is it gonna come true,
How wonderful it would be!

so much pretence. in front of others. sometimes i wonder why ppl condemn. if there were no condemnation from god. from people. would people be free to do whatever they wanted? laws. restrictions. i hate all of those. you cannot do this, cannot do that. does love transcend all boundaries? it does not. love is captive to law. you can only love within law. not outside law. because then it would not be considered love anymore.

a highly complex paragraph. sounds like bullshit? makes complete sense to me.

forgot to add in one bit. fact or fiction is up to the writer of the blog. what i bitch about here, what i complain about is entirely up to me. the way YOU want to interpret it is up to YOU. and i think YOU know what i'm saying. yes. its YOUR interpretation. and i dun care how u interpret it cos i'm writing it my way. may not make sense to the rest. but it sure does make sense to YOU doesnt it. maybe that explains my behaviour.

hmmm.. tired like shit. but will attempt to squeeze out a blog with my limited brainjuices. today was such a fun day! =)

start off with waking up at 7.15am, and immediately by the ringing of the my handphone "Mok Zhun Wei calling...".

me: hello?
wei: aye. u just woke up issit?
me: yea.
wei: rmb to bring your racket hor. i'm leaving the house already.

with my 2-minute schedule, i brushed my teeth, changed up, put my contacts on, combed hair and poof ran out of the house to the bus stop outside. i remember the exact time i boarded the bus 7:36am and when i reached it was 8:06am. at 7:58am rui called and asked where i was. i was on the bus, abit late, but not too bad. i think they were late too, just not that late. so i got off, sauntered into the estate like it was my house and went to play tennis with them.

paired up with rui for the first round. and omg. so throw face!! 6-0 thrash by those two freaks. grr. nvm. then the next round paired with wei.. we were winning tem.. or at least drawing, until this angmoh woman walked in and told us that they booked the court. so yea. we left. went up to ET's house and she took DAMN long to open the door. joshua was in the house btw. and we were outside discussing definitions of a "quickie" with wei insisting that it would be less than 20min long and how long it would take for somebody to get dressed.

sadly her house had no mahjong set, so we had to play cards. spades, hearts, bridge etc. normal games. then watched abit of kungfu hustle and took a few photos here and there. went for lunch that ET cooked. i.e. la1 mian4 and jiao3 zi4. not too bad. and we drank red wine. then continued with our games and phototaking. played a few rounds of money blackjack. ended up losing, so i retired before the game ended. noeing how to zi4 ba2 is a good thing. then we taupoked wei twice (for no apparent reason) and my stomach hurts.

left her house at 4pm and made our way down to orchard area. by then hulin and joshua left cos they had stuff on. rui + shengli + khee ngiap + poon went to get gifts for william wong and V-day stuff. while wei + aloy + russ + me went to play pool. scampered between two areas just to find a 7 foot table to play pool. so small!!! i could proudly say that i won 3/3 of the pool doubles we played. first was with aloy, wei then russell. won all. nearly won the next 4man-9ball-slugfest. but damn. russell won it. then we played another 2 games of doubles. i lost one and won one i think.

then the funny part came. the shopkeeper tried to cheat us. she was like 8 bucks. and i asked her why 8 bucks. cos i totally remembered the time we went in. and it was $6/hour and we played only 1 hr 5 minutes. so then she said $7 and i questioned her again and she finally said the correct $6.60 which was more believable. bitch.

went for dinner after that. played zong1 ji2 mi4 ma3. first round kana was rui. he had to drink nice stuff compared to mine, cos i lost the second round. it was some... egg yolk plus tomato plus coke plus soupy stuff and chicken skin. it tasted horrible. it was SWEET and SALTY at the same time. suay until like shit. was supposed to kill kheengiap. not meeee? and we met the moks sis for dinner. damn sad. she got suanned thruout. thanks to wonderful me.

Sis: why you all landing here? (cos we were all at the same stall buying food)
Me: cos here got airport runway.. hint hint.

then she said something bad about me. cant rmb what. then in the end i went to my favourite elitist gep-non-gep segregation thing. then aloy said to moks sis something like "you can say that during your time no gep" and she happily praised aloy for siding with her.. when in actual fact aloy was insulting her abt being old. damn funny. i mean.. yea. she didnt even noe when she was insulted. the true mark of a non-gepper. but nvm.

last part, we went carrefour to get stuff for her to make sushi. i wonder if its edible. so we had this little game. khee ngiap + me vs aloy + rui. we were supposed to run around and get the stupid ingredients for her sushi. i can rmb it so well. 1. corn (ended up getting the canned ones cos dun have fresh corn) 2. crabstick 3. japanese mayonaise 4. sushi vinegar 5. sausage (dunno for what) i think we lost. then the last item was some.. ittogo dressing or something. we couldnt find it.. yea. but they had help, so it was cheating. we took a video i think. damn funny. must watch. yupz. then after that we all went home..

so tired. got dfeste rehearsal tmr.. must wake up at 8.15am.. must sleep noww. nite~

a quick blog before i go and bathe and sleep. nothing much today. slept like a peeg till 2am. when i woke up, they already left and went to my mums frenz house. played com until around 5pm. then i took bus 55 down to marine parade. took a 40~50min ride. walked INTO mandarin gardens, which is such a big condo, couldnt really find my way around.. but managed to locate the swimming pool, then subsequently moved to my mums frenz house.

when i went in. there were like 4~5 families there already. they invited all their close frenz and relatives for dinner. as time went by around 2~3 more families arrived. so u could just imagine the squeeziness in that house. thronged by adults, mostly greying hair and around 40++ age and flooded by lil kids around primary school age. whereas i was bored stiff cos there wasnt many ppl my age. just one guy and one girl. then the rest were either way older or younger.

plus i didnt noe them THAT well also. met them before at the house last year. it was much better cos we got to play cards and stuff. this year, the pack of cards brought out was short of like 3 or 4 cards so we couldnt play anything. basically just ate and ate and ate somemore. when i felt hungry, just went to eat. ate 2 servings + 3 bowls of soup and 2 bowls of ching chao. and ppl wonder why i dun grow fat.

came back. talked on the phone. used com. blogged. will bathe. then will sleep and prepare for tmrs tennis @ ET's house. yupz.

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defence. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

cny todae. quite normal. like what we do every year. wake up at like 1130am. then get ready to leave the house. take a picture, then we're on the move to my grand aunt's house.. at her house, exchange of angpows, see my once-in-a-year cousins (who are actually my mums cousins children), say a bit of hellos and happy new years, drink my grand aunts trademark red date tea which tastes REALLY good and leave.

oh while we were there. one of the cousins of mine, whose a J2, huge and i mean HUGE sits there, half dozing off. then the parents start gossiping abt their children, like how tall i am and why cant i grow fat. while that cousin's mum was like telling my mum how terrible that cousin of mine is. he could eat like 10 egg whites in a day.. OMG. 5 in half boiled eggs and the other 5 some way thruout the day he would eat them. man. thats a HUGE appetite for eggs. madness.

went over to my paternal grandparent's house. ate lunch there, watched a bit of a police story 3. great show.. but had to leave halfway for my aunts house (my mums sister). went there. and felt like it was a giant oven cos everything was so hot. alot of walls and no windows, or there were windows, but not open. thus the heat was overbearing. thus decided to go to Kbox with my 2 cousins, whom i'm closer to. my family tree (maternal side):

1st Generation: Grandmother + Grandfather (deceased, and i've never seen him before)

2nd Generation: 1st Aunt, 2nd Aunt, Uncle, My mum.

3rd Generation:
1st Aunt - Zai Zai (Male, 24) + Mei Ying (Female, 15)
2nd Aunt - Ah Boi (Male, 21) + Ah Girl (Female, 16)
Uncle - Xiang Xiang (Male, 13 or 14)
Mum - Me (Male, 17) + Mathias (Male, 11) + Tabitha (Female, 8)

my uncle didnt go cos he was in malaysia. went with zai zai and ah boi to Kbox.. and yea. those are the real names i call them. =) hahaha. sounds abit weird but i dunno. its just the way it works. Kbox for 3 hours. damn expensive. but sigh wad to do. my aunts house didnt have mahjong table.. so couldnt play, unlike the other years where we were at my grandmothers house instead. after Kbox, we came back, ate dinner, talked cock a while then left @ around 9pm.

must comment that recently angpows have become more interestingly designed. now i see golden packets instead of red packets, beautifully adorned with designs of chicken. however quality of appearance is somehow inversely proportionate to the quality of what's within. if u get what i mean.. =P

happy chinese new year! gong xi fa cai! =) i am a happy person today! because i'll get lots of ang pows today! hahahahahahahahaha. on a serious note, may all the chinese out there, as well as the non-chinese in singapore, enjoy a super long 5 day break this CNY and have a blessed week ahead!

ok. back to my blogging. today was an absolutely interesting interesting day! was like watching a movie throughout. aiyar. it was just damn comical. lets use the A and B principle again. A's doing a project with B. So A wants to meet up with B to discuss project. However, B, being a B-see (busy) person, has no time to meet up with A. Thus B tells A "lets just talk over the phone instead". But for some weird reason A keeps pestering B to meet up to discuss. B gets pissed and tells A to stop being so irritating, of course all of which happens while the whole world watches on. Then A still sticks around. B went shopping with the whole world and A tagged along. Finally they reach some sort of conclusion that they would meet on Sat or sumthing. B isnt exactly happy. but oh well. then A and B go home together, despite the fact that B told A on the phone that B didnt wanna go home with A. hahahaha.

if u didnt understand the story, or thought it was too confusing.. nvm =) todays celebrations were not worth mentioning. except one, which was the lion dancer falling from the chair because the STUPID chair was technically unsound. that poor guy. i think hes fine.. but it looked painful when he fell.. hope nothings wrong. the rest of the performances were so-so except for the med fac band whose lead singer had such a nice voice.. raspy raspy like the girl at new crea one.. cant rmb her name. then while we were sneaking off. jeanne tan caught us. i fucking hate her. such a bitch. in the end we went off via another stair case. grr.

visited RI, saw the teachers. yak looks different. she looked really tired and stuff. and kinda grew fatter. poor her. lol. tang and the rest looked pretty much the same.. not much diff. sihui also. apparently she danced..!!! WOAH! mean feat sia. then played tennis for 3 hours. bathed. went for lunch. watched the above mentioned "movie", followed hulin to choose his tops and bottoms for CNY. went home. slept, played com.

tmr gonna go visiting liao. angpow collection. i just hope i get to play mahjonggggg.~! mahjong addiction. its new year again! woohoo.

another dramafeste rehearsal. another boring, ok not THAT boring day.. =) this afternoon went for lunch with the 3 girls. and i must admit. all of them are as zi4 lian4 as me!! oh man.. rongsiu brought a digicam. and tada. we started taking pictures. haahahah. again and again and again until i was satisfied. such an egomaniac. plus in bio class today, we had to play with potatos. so charissa ended up making mr carrot (that was the name we gave to the potato sculpture) ahahah. lame rite? then it was damn cute. so we brought it around, until rongsiu decided to add stuff i.e. draw on its face till it became so UGLY. then we threw it away.

so sad. and after that i went lanning with my senior class. walked so far. until my legs dropped off. dun really think they were nice cos they never did inform me when they left. such asssssses. hrrmph. i wont go with them lanning anymore. its damn ex also. rather go and play pool with my dramafeste cast!

talking abt dramafeste rehearsal. it was SO slack. half the time they were gossipping abt the hot guys or girls in sch. the other half, smriti was using my orange highlighter to draw on my green file. apparently for no reason. crazy girl. thus in the process, she kinda destroyed my highlighter. damn sad. GRRR. then i finally was able to change my tone for dramafeste script. i hope i do remember how to do the "dolls, figurines, vibrators" speech. sigh. must be more personal and break out of the stupid way i speak.

went for dinner with sarah and jade. and woah. i tell u. both of them are unparalleled in their eating speeds. can fight with zing lorrr. lol. i left at 8pm to meet the moks @ a fast food joint. i was happily standing outside KFC and asking them where they were. of course they were inside. lol. so stupid. then we went in, talked abit. and they went up to the fourth floor to look at some cow stuffed toy. should i get it for them? its 40 bucks. hmm.

after which i left for home, and ended up blogging this entry. tmr is CNY celebrations. quite interesting i hope.

my nick says "i will get back what is rightfully mine." u thought u could take my place. but i tell you, i'm gonna get it back. and u're gonna regret it so bad. so bad. treasure ur days now. fool. all the lies u've spoken. all the twisting of your language and whatever. i've got enough. u think i'm dumb. but i tell you i'm not. watch out.

Friends

An unexplained bond between two people
Transcending all boundaries.
A bit of love, alot of like,
Mixed with camaraderie.

When you always knew what was on his mind,
Even when he did not speak.
But when he did, you would always listen,
Secrets that you would never leak.

When asked of a favour, you'd never say no,
You'd always give in to him.
When in a fight, over who's right,
You would ensure he wins.

What difference is there between friends and lovers
That sets them far apart.
No petting, no kissing, no hugging, no kissing,
No squeezing of the butt.

But what if one day, a friend became lover,
Would you bear to see him alone?
Was friendship and courtship, ever so different,
That each was on its own?

People proclaim that friendship and courtship
Was never ever the same.
The emotions were similar, the love was there,
The only difference the name.

If friends became lovers and lovers broke up,
Could they ever be friends again?
That is the question, i seek to answer,
Would it end in happiness or pain?

i'm kinda poetic huh. ahahah. =) dfeste rehearsal today. bloc-ed scene 1. ok i dunno how 2 spell bloc. but it just means that we went thru how the movements were gonna be like on stage and we went thru basically how the first part of the play would appear. not too bad. just hope that we could keep up with the energy. its such a high enery play that drains every single drop of life out of you. i just hope that i dun drop in energy level on that night or else..

after that, went for lunch with smriti, matin, jade and sarah. they were eating delifrance and i went over to macs to da pao some meal and went over to eat with them.. after finishing, at around 245pm, smriti and matin left with hadri and zul to somewhere. matin needed to do his hair. smriti needed to go for some party. yea. jade didnt wanna go home yet, so we walked all the 4 floors of J8. basically, doing nothing much except walking around and talking until around 330pm.

During that time, we went into popular to get stuff. i needed FOUR files for my four subjects. hmm. there was an array of colours. but decided on BLACK, RED, BLUE and SILVER/GREY. then she went to get her two plastic rulers. oh and like i found out that we had the SAME birthday in Watson's. cos we were kinda looking at stuffed toys, the big chicken one which i could imagine hulin wearing for dfeste. when she said 21st August, i just.. couldnt believe my ears.

so of course i did the stupidest thing. i made her take out her buss pass to show me. wahahahahahah. cos i thought she knew my bdae or sumthing. then she just plucked it out and 21/08/1988 was written on it!! OMG OMG OMG OMG. i've known people who have the name REUBEN FOO. but so far, shes the only one who shares her bdae with me.. WOW. so coincidental. plus. apparently she likes eeyore. hahaha. so yay. i can celebrate my bdae with someone else!

umm. gonna go off to do some work. write some CNY cards, decorate my files, and finish up tutorial as well as read thru the script again.. i must think sleep and eat dfeste from now on. =)

am i biting off more than i can chew? looking at the recent spate of activities that i've signed up for, sometimes i wonder how come i can be in so many places at one time. and february is my THAT time of the month. no. not THAT time. but a hectic and crazy scheduled month that is. lemme give a rough overview. and i'll be equally scared as i type them out. because in my mind i just now that i'll be so tired @ the end of it.. but still i'll be happy. argh.

CCAs:
1. Fencing - Wed 2.30 ~ 5.30, Fri 4.00 ~ 6.30
2. Interact - Every other wednesday 1.30 ~ 2.00
3. Raffles Players (if i get in) - Every other wednesday 2.30 ~ god noes when

Other stuff:
1. Orientation 2 - depending on the schedule
2. Dramafeste - which is gonna be a killer with those rehearsals
3. Jap lessons - every mon and thu from 4.00 ~ 5.30

so that leaves my tuesdays free. but NO. interact club has a weekly CIP thingy. which i will have to put on my FREE tuesdays which make them NOT FREE. sigh. i'm already going back at nearly 7pm every day now.. then i'm so tired and smelly and sticky and argh. its just baddddd. but its fun.

tmr having another rehearsal for dramafeste. from 9am to 2pm ++ which i think will drag. but nvm. yeaaa. i just hope we do well for dramafeste. the scripts better now and i just hope that i wont screw up. must change my tone abit more.. i'm supposedly going into a very comfortable and repetitive rhythm. which isnt kinda good for my character cos it makes me very irritating and predictable. so after awhile. ppl start to turn off. i'll try. i'll try.

off to bathe now. stinky me wants to smell good.

depression bout.

|PrinceGoliathe@SNjB| who knows the sorrow behind a clown's smile? depressed. goliathe.blogspot.com! 1So3D! [risec4gep2004]

does my life revolve around coming on msn, hoping to see the green in the little man that represents you on my desktop? Of all 150++ contacts. there are FOUR of you on my desktop. yet it seems that throughout my life on msn, i've been waiting for a little orange flicker on the blue background of my screen across your name, telling me that you've finally said something.

when people are depressed, i cheer them up. when people have relationships problems, i try to mediate. but who ever comes to cheer me up when i'm depressed. who ever comes to mediate when i have relationship problems. in the short span of 58 minutes and 42 seconds you inflicted another depression bout on me.

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[23:09:27] A : u noe...
[23:09:33] A : u had them also
[23:09:42] A : chose gave up
[23:10:55] B : noe.
[23:10:55] B : sorry

[23:25:12] A : forgive but cant forget
[23:26:43] B : i guess.
[23:27:23] B : what do get back?
[23:27:30] A : nth
[23:27:36] A : time

[23:33:35] A : u me angry too
[23:34:11] B : noe.
[23:34:23] B : stupid insensitive

incoherent ramblings.

4YOU fucked up my life. 1bitch. 1YOU know how fucking happy i would be if it hadnt been for YOU. 8so what if YOU think YOU know best. 9FUCK YOU. 5 FUCKER. 2ASSHOLE.

9you 1know 2that 8i'll 1always be the same towards you. you were the first and always will be the first. i'll prove to you that i'm sincere. i really am. i'll not let you down.

9maybe 5u 3have 2a sensitive side which i've never seen before. i really tried so hard to be nice. i noe you'll always put him before me. you've rejected me so many times. body language. words. it spells "keep away from me" all over your forehead. but then why do u still play me?

"muakz" - what significance?

just got back from rehearsal for dramafeste. quite fun.. did alot of casting auditions. like hulin said, its a real drain of emotion. i'm so.. emotionless now. hahaha. but it was fun nonetheless. compliments to sarah and jade. man you two are the BEST bimbos and ah lians in the world. i mean.. like. *how do u do it man* its so natural. and yea. its been great seeing you two act. hulins great too. man. we're fighting for two roles. bird and lamb. i'm fine with both. so are you. so oh well. smritis gonna tell us the casting results by tmr morning somehow.. so all the best to the two of us. we put in our best rite? =)

i wanna kiss you so badly.

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