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the sound of waves,
lapping the shore.
just like the songs you used to sing.
the gentle breeze,
caressing my face.
reminds me of you.
i see the sunset,
with your head on my shoulders.
your hand in mine,
we would have been so happy.
together.

it is over~!!! yes. but i don't feel anything. its all over. maybe not. theres the Os. until then.. i should be getting abit of peace and quiet. at least until next monday and the results come back. peace.

hmmz. ok i didnt blog yesterday abt bio. looked thru my bio MCQ. i got like 10 wrong. blardy hell. i dunno what went into me. i just want an A1.. arrgh.

geog today was ok. i proved to myself once again geog is plain commonsense. studied physical geog. got disgusted cos it was so boring.. didnt really mug human at all. today ended up doing 2 human 2 physical. hmmz. not too hard. should be expecting an A1. :)

A maths was ok.. not as bad as Commontest cos i couldnt finish in CT.. but today i finished more or less. as for the carelessness bit. i'm not too sure. i await A Maths paper 2.. i think i need more practice. lolx.

*steals a post*

yay~! i've got a shiny clear crystal ball and i'm so proud of it.. i remember telling weiyuan. i noe what will come out for SS tomorrow. SBQ: GON, SEQ: GON, Harmony and Discord, Conflict and Cooperation. =) hehe. i was totally right. even tho i didnt study GON.. was alright. the 4 source based questions were ok i guess. didnt really do the last question properly i guess.

first two were on reliability. so i just need to cross reference can liao. which i did to other sources, but whether they would be accepted i dunno. third was on a similarity and difference thingy. not too difficult. last was a Study all Sources, does it show that personal responsibility plays a crucial role in Singapore. 7 marks. die lah. mixed up personal and family responsibility. hope the marker doesnt see thru my nonsense. =)

essays. question 2: n ireland (13m) and causes for swiss harmony (12m). simple larh. all studied before. question 3: deterrence vs diplomacy (13m) and ASEAN (12m). didnt study ASEAN. couldnt do that question. question 4: welfare state (13m) and japans industrialisation slowdown (12m). couldnt do the welfare thingy. actually i could. we prepared a debate in class before.. was against welfare. but forgot my points. didnt wanna risk my A1.

hmm. target for SS 40++/50. finished on time. no screwups. essays should be getting above 10 marks each. source based estimating 6/6. 6/6. 5/6. 5/7. so total 22/25. essay estimating 11/12 and 11/13. total 22/25. total 44/50. =) i noe i did well. *beams*


time flutters. its been three weeks since my birthday. two weeks since i've gone to church. one week since the holidays started. 5 days since i've known someone. 2 days since i've collected my jap results. 1 day since yesterday. and today's peg's bdae. i think shes still angry with me. she never replied to my sms. even a happy birthday sms should be replied with a courtesy thank you. but i've gotten nothing. its ok. 3 weeks. nothing much. nobody's been that pissed with me. but i'm numb.. too numb. numbed from commontests. numbed from frenships. i'm tired too.

today marks the end of all the late nights i've been having for the past.. 4 nights? 3.30am seemed to be a nice time to sleep. despite the late nights. its been a pleasure staying up.. lolx. and yea.. if u're thinking otherwise. NO. its not any sexual pleasure that i gain from staying up or the pleasure i get from staring at the computer monitor for 10million hours. and no.. its not a weird fetish i have with staying up late either.. actually to rephrase that. its not a pleasure. its just very soothing to talk to ppl over msn. at least it makes u feel that you've got nice ppl around you whom u can just talk to.. over anything and everything. =)

arrgh. but i also realised through the course of the 4 ~5 nites, probably wasted alot of time and considering that my prelims is tomorrow and will continue on for the next 2 weeks. i wont have time to come online at all. which means no chatting.. *ORRRh. so sad* that poor guys probably like "finally! freeed from slavery" hahahahaa. i still remember. if i can calculate correctly, 30*2 = 60. 60 / 150min = 1 every 2.5 minutes. if 1 = 160 alphabets and 2.5 minutes = 150 seconds. then it shud be around alphabet/sec. but arh. not everytime was 160 alphabets. soo nvm.

and if u after reading so long still don't understand what in the world i'm talking abt.. oh well. go think harder.. its not too difficult. if u look at ur handphone hard enough. hmm. *thinking* nvm nvm. soo sadddd. i've got prelims. everyones got prelims. just here to wish everyone the best for their upcoming stuff. i noe will be hard, but once its over. u will rejoice. once Os are over, u will rejoice. i'm really happy.. i've been really happy the past few days.. hope that prelims won't dampen my mood and i'll walk into the exam hall smiling with jesus beside me, and his 72,000 angels surrounding me and wisdom and righteousness be upon me wherever i go. oh the impt thing is walkin OUT of the exam hall smiling as well. =)

amen. god bless you. and you and you and you... and the one with the initials JS, even if you don't believe that theres a god in this world, or ur a .. dialogue. no.. di- something. di-agnostic. ok. u're agnostic. but it doesnt mean that there isnt a god in this world k? just basing on the fact that life itself cannot be a coincidence shows that theres someone controlling the way things work in the universe. by saying that the universe was made out of a big bang is as good as saying that if u place a chimpanzee in front of a computer, he will eventually, after upteenth tries type out erm. Tolkiens Lord of the Rings. yea.. its that HIGH a percentage.

i've gotten my first A1 from jap.. dunno abt chinese and english. but i'm gonna place that all into YOUR hands. ok. =) watch over me...


OH MY GOSH. i cant believe it!! u noe my teacher handed me my paper in dribs and drabs. there were 3 pieces. no four. i got back my paper 2 first, paper 3, paper 1 then paper 4. cos paper 1 was like the overall thingy where they showed the marks for all sections, i nearly died when i saw my LC... i kapooted for that section. :S and i got a pleasant surprise...

Paper I was Usage and Composition -- 35.3/45
Paper II was Reading Comprehension -- 24.5/30
Paper III was Listening Comprehension -- 8.9/15
Paper IV was Oral - 7.7/10
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Total -- 76.4 /100 (yea.. A1! amen!)

heh. u noe what my jap teacher said. bikkurishimashita. (what a surprise) so bitchy. cos i dun think she thought that i would have gotten A1.. with my standard as 4th in class (from the bottom) and getting like Bs and Cs for my previous tests, i dun think she had much hope for this poor soul here. but wooot~! i got it!!! to god be the glory~! oh yea.. the above has weird weird marks cos they are in percentages.. actual marks below.

Paper I - Usage and Composition
Section A : 16/20 (usage)
Section B : 7/10 (picture compo)
Section C: 12.3 /15 (free topic compo)

my most unexpected section which i got the highest in out of all my 3 papers. as in in comparison to my expected marks cos my sakubun (composition) usually sucked. and it was my last sakubun that i wrote in class that i got a stunning 12/15.. and this prelim sakubun i actually got 12.3!! way to go~!

must thank marcus for being such a great jap teacher.. he taught me bits of jap.heh. i sent him my compo which aroused the suspicions of my jap teacher cos it became so good suddenly. she accused me of copying.. which was true cos marcus marked it for me then i just copied it out. but the one which i got 12/15 was by my own effort. so i was very proud of myself.. =)

Paper II - Reading Comprehension
cant remember the various components but i remember i got 24.5/30 for the raw score.. not too bad i guess. but could have done better.. at least 2 more marks.

Paper III - Listening Comprehension
Section A: 6/6
Section B: 3/4
Section C: 1/4
Section D: 1/3
Section E: 2/5
Total: 13/22

eew pathetic listening compre... hated it. was too difficult. the section A which i got 6/6 was horribly tyco. didnt noe alot. went along with intuition.. oh well. so blessed. then after that started kapooting cos from section C onwards it wasnt multiple choice.. sectin C and D required writing stuff and section E was a true or false thingy.. :S bad bad. must brush up.

Paper IV - Oral
Reading: 8/10
Conversation
A. Comprehension and Responsiveness: 7/10
B. Fluency (or sumthing along those lines): 8/10

cant believe i got 23 considering that the highest in class was a 24 and i was SECOND.. like of all ppl. and i thought that yihan or jiangyan would be getting better marks than me. i guess asai was being strict.. i saw the RGS girls results mostly above 22. and definitely much higher cos they got ppl getting 26.. and 27. yea. highest in J4A an RGS cum NYGH class was 28/30 for oral.. :X but nvm. the impt thing is that i didnt get 5.5/10.. STUPID MOMOKO YOKOI. hate u!! lolx.

very pleased with my jap results. as for those who didnt get A1.. i'm sure u can do it.. from my 4th in class to currently 7th.. which means i'm in the centre now *grinz* it was a GREAT LEAP FORWARD. to poonsie, benny, sergius and mingren.. u all have been better than me before. just work hard and i'm sure u can get ur A1 as well. ganbatte!


*i dunno whats gotten into me.. i'm going mad* its my prelims in 3 days. i'm getting my JAPANESE results tomorrow @ 2.30pm. i'm slowly going crazy. WHY. its all because of mIRC. i hate that thing. i hate it. why.. why did i have to have it in the first place. all the pain and bittersweet feelings its been bringing me these 3 days. i thought wrong. i thought wrong.

i realised as human beings. we need love. we need the people around us to give us love and concern. despo. thats what they call ppl who crave love and attention. guys tend to shake it off with a "nah i dun need love and concern" and laugh at those who want girls to like them. i don;t know. theres a deep sorrow within. an undescribable heaviness.

to want to be loved by someone is one thing. to GET love is another thing altogether. i've been talking to ppl. many people whom i've never met in my entire life before, but found them on iRC. yet all these fleeting "friends" around me. will they last. will they? i think not. till when and where will my heart find another heart?

i recently got to know of a fren whom i've been talking to for 3 whole nights. it seems talking to that person is the only interesting way to spend my nights. oh well. studying is such a chore. yet theres a shrouded mystery behind the identity. nothing is said about the name. yet we talk as if we have been frens. the wonders of technology and irony behind it.

behind the mask of normalcy and everything that seems to emanate from this front lies a deprived, perverted at times angry and frustrated mind. anything i say risks being interpreted and seen in a different light. if i were to release everything that i wanted off my chest in my blog. everyone would be appalled. i would lose everything i ever had and owned.

sometimes i cry. i wonder why i am such a pathetique. i envy others who lead lives that are normal. why was i created this way i don't know. i've asked Him alot of times. why? no reply. did i ever want it this way? no. if i had a choice would i have chosen this path? no. oblivious to the facts ppl can laugh and joke.

once confronted. they are afraid. they laugh it off. i laugh. but who sees the cruel marks behind the mask. who sees the pained soul who needs comforting. who can walk with me on this road no man wishes to take. not my parents who would be so hurt. not my church friends who would shrink away from me. not my siblings cos they wouldnt understand. not my school friends cos they would laugh. no one except god.

i risk destroying all that i have. i never wanted this. tell me why...


eXpressive: 7/10
Practical: 4/10
Physical: 7/10
Giver: 3/10


You are a XSYT--Expressive Sentimental Physical Taker. This makes you a Firebrand.

You are volatile, sexy and sexually driven. You're magnetic and fascinating, but you don't really enjoy playing the field -- it makes you nervous and preys on your insecurites. But when you fall for someone you fall hard.

You tend to over-analyze things, so the slightest comment or action from your significant other can send you into a tailspin. You crave attention and validation from your loved ones, so if your friends don't like your partner or your partner doesn't like your friends it makes you suffer. Unfortunately the two are often in conflict -- you have excellent insight with your friends, but in a relationship you are blind. Trust your friends!

You blow hot and cold, with big highs and big lows. This makes the bad times very bad but the good times very good, so you tend to stay in a problem relationship much longer than you should. But when a relationship fails, you hold a grudge. That's not necessarily a bad thing, but make sure your grudge doesn't cloud your vision the other way!

What would help you most in your relationships is confidence. You need someone who can help you feel good about yourself and not worse.

You can be needy and jealous. Fortunately you are cute as hell.

Of the 62234 people who have taken this quiz, 5.9 % are this type.



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Wackiness: 28/100
Rationality: 46/100
Constructiveness: 52/100
Leadership: 72/100


You are a SEDL--Sober Emotional Destructive Leader. This makes you a Dictator.

You prefer to control situations, and lack of control makes you physically sick. You feel have responsibility for everyone's welfare, and that you will be blamed when things go wrong. Things do go wrong, and you take it harder than you should.

You rely on the validation and support of others, but you have a secret distrust for people and distaste for their habits and weaknesses that make you keep your distance from them. This makes you very difficult to be with romantically. Still, a level-headed peacemaker can keep you balanced.

Despite your fierce temper and general hot-bloodedness, you have a soft spot for animals and a surprising passion for the arts. Sometimes you would almost rather live by your wits in the wilderness somewhere, if you could bring your books and your sketchbook.

You also have a strange, undeniable sexiness to you. You may go insane.

Of the 19081 people who have taken this quiz since tracking began (8/17/2004), 5.3 % are this type.

arrgh. the worst thing that could have happened to me has happened. i screwed up chem pract. not big time.. but rather bad i shud say.. lets see what the great reuben did.

1. VA (Volumetric Analysis) i should be getting near full marks.. so thats not too bad. 20/20.

2. QA (Quantitative Analysis) this is the shitty one.. this is what i did. i heated the wrong stuff.. we were given two bags labelled R and S.. R was a crystalline solid colourless. S was a bag of copper powder. thats was what wenwei said.. we were supposed 2 heat R... and i heated S for 10 minutes wondering why it didnt change colour and i even tested the gas :( like how shitty and stupid.

so i happily wasted around 15 minutes leaving only 45 minutes for QA. then i blankoed all my answers and redid it. in my hurry i koped like total of 9 test tubes from the front. (we were originally given 6 and i didnt have time to wash cos i wasted so much time). while rinsing one of my 9 testtubes i was flicking it and trying to dry it.. wasnt looking, so whacked it against the side of the basin and nearly killed weihan.

i wish i did.. hahaha. just joking. the other time.. after heating R (the correct one) i added distilled water without letting it cool because i had no time.. there was a sizzling sound... and *crack* test tube cracked into 2.. oh poor me.

next. there was adding of S to T (some liquid they gave in a testtube) so i added. nothing happened. so it was alright.. then they said add hcl to half the testtube. so i did. at first still nothing happened.. until 10 seconds later.. it started bubbling. i didnt expect effervescence and it was exothermic. smart reuben decided to trap the gas by sticking his thumb over the test tube..

in less than 10 seconds a testtube of hot bluish bubbling liquid (much like those chem experiments full of magic) was in my left hand the my right thumb was attempting to keep down the gas. oh well.. u realised.. the testtube exploded spraying hot liquid all over my hand and all over my exam paper. so my QA portion of the test paper had brown splotches.

lastly i was caught by liang soon writing after the time ended. :S like how shitty could it be. "solidified when cooled" 3 words and he wanted to minus 1 or 2 marks from my paper. bleh. that pt was probably not in the answer scheme anyway. luckily he didnt. just wrote on my exam paper that i wrote after time and pointed out which line. *sticks out tongue*

in total i koped 2 test tubes of T, used 9 testtubes, broke 2 of them and used 4 packets of R and 4 packets of S.. chem. horrible, arrrrgh~!

shit. screwed chinese up big time todae.. oh well. who to blame for not studying? *points to myself* i counted so far, i got 21/35 for tian zi, tian ci, and zao ju. like how pathetic can i be.. :S nvm nvm.. i've got the rest of the things to "beef up my score" just hope that i can do better for the rest of the sections.

next today they announced the arrangement for grad night... 10 ppl to a table @ Ritz Carlton (woooottt...) on 23rd November from 7.00pm to 11.00pm. Its supposedly subsidized to $50 a person. which is STILL alot of money, but i think it'll be worth it. after all, 4 years in RI and it'll be last night where everyone's together.. $50 is nothing for the memories.

kk. but the pt is i'm screwed cos some NICE guy didnt reply to any of my msgs. i need to sit with someone nice lest be thrown into groups with Joey or something along those lines.. hahaha. damn damn. the longer i wait the less time i have. ok that didnt really make much sense. but who cares.. =) i think i shud start mugging something.

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