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the sound of waves,
lapping the shore.
just like the songs you used to sing.
the gentle breeze,
caressing my face.
reminds me of you.
i see the sunset,
with your head on my shoulders.
your hand in mine,
we would have been so happy.
together.

IT HAS BEGUN!! today marked the start of my Prelims. my Japanese oral prelims. arrgh. actually i must admit that i didnt do really badly. not as badly as last time. :S lolx. i'll steal a few minutes of my precious study time to give u a recount of what happened.

two years ago on this same fateful day infront of a Japanese sensei (teacher) by the name of Ms. B. Itch Momoko...

"Ohayogozaimas! (Good Morning) Reuben san, Kyomi / shyumi wa nan desuka? (Reuben, what are interests / hobbies?)"

(and i thought she meant the MEANING of that damned word. yes its a damned word. only just now i just realised the difference in the two. so being a sec 2 student under the disgusting tutelage of Ms Pauline Lue who looked like a PMSing Singaporean Japanese teacher, of course i didnt noe wad B. Itch Momoko said.)

so i replied with a "wakarimasen... (i don't know)"

after the stupid exam with her, i realised my disgusting marks. which were as disgusting as her and realised the meaning of the word. shyumi = hobbies, kyomi = interests. then i realised she was asking what my interests/hobbies were. WTF. and i got a 5.5/10 for my oral. B. Itch. Momoko. i'll always remember u even if i forget ALL my japanese dept teachers. :S

yea. today was fine.. Asai sensei (Ms Shallow Well. thats the direct translation. qian3 jing3) was rather nice. she kept smiling throughout. but it works both ways. smiles can be deceiving. if i find out she gave me a 5.5/10 which converts to 16.5/30. i will hate her for the rest of my life. DAAAAmn. lolx. but i believe that she liked my answers.. well. shes a nice sensei. by her looks, she looks kind.. and compassionate and like a santa claus.

she especially liked this (hopefully):
Asai: "shourai wa nani o naritai desuka?" (what do u wanna be next time)
Me: "watashi wa sensei ni naritai desu." (i want to be a teacher)
Asai: *interested look* "soudeska? doushite sensei ni naritai desuka?" (really? why do u want to be a teacher)
Me: *recites well rehearsed line* "sensei wa shin sei na shyoku gyo desukara..." (because being a teacher is a sacred job)
Asai: *chuckles*

heheh. quite fun having oral with her.. =) shes looks like the kind who would give me an A1 for my B3 standard. time will tell.

i realised that it's always better to keep my mouth shut than to say sumthing wrong at the wrong times and get ppl angrier. oh well.

boring nonsense todae. sat is our jap oral but i dun seem to feel prepared for it. my jap will be as good as a native speaker's! i'll do well this sat. meanwhile i've got a relationship problem to settle. how or when i don't know. human effort by now seems completely impossible. not that it's impossible, but i dun seem to get anywhere by my effort. i'll just pray and believe in the power of prayers.

do i simply not care or what should i do. you tell me. i am at a loss. i've tried my best. everything i did. nothing worked. work me a miracle.


phoenix profiscor alicunde favilla - A Phoenix Arises From The Ashes.

When You Feel Angry

Anger is such a bad thing and when we entertain it we are in for a lot of trouble. Many people say let me alone and allow me this privilege. But they do not realize that their health is on the line and the devil has the opportunity to work in their lives. You can hold your anger against someone and when you want to be forgiven you will not find forgiveness. It is not funny and you will suffer greatly if you will hold on to bitterness and anger any length of time. It is better to get rid of it right away then to pay the consequences of holding on to it.

When angry do not sin don't ever allow your anger to last until sundown. Leave no such room or foothold for the devil. [Ephesians 4:26-27]

Don't grieve the Holy Spirit of God by whom you are sealed, as God's own for the day of redemption. Let all bitterness, and indignation and wrath and resentments, anger, animosity and quarreling and slander be banished from you with all malice ill will, or baseness of any kind. Become useful and helpful and kind to one another forgiving one another as God has forgiven you in Christ Jesus. [Ephesians 4:30-32]

A soft answer turns away wrath, but grievous words stir up anger. [Proverbs 15:1]

He who is slow to anger has great understanding, but he who is hasty of spirit exposes and exalts folly [Proverbs 14:29]

A hot-tempered man stirs up strife, but he who is slow to anger appeases contention. [15:18]

He who is slow to anger is better than the mighty, he who rules his spirit than he who takes a city. [Proverbs 16:32]

But now put away and rid yourselves completely of all these things; anger, rage, bad feeling toward others, curses and slander and foulmouthed abuse and shameful utterances from your lips. [Colossians 3:8]

Allow the Holy Spirit of the risen Christ come in and rule in your life completely and you will find that you can control your temper through His power.

taken from http://www.joyofthelord.org/www/911_02.php

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self explanatory. i tried my best. i finally realised the fragility of frenship. i remembered not too long ago. i had two of my bestest frenz in the world. not that i knew EVERYONE in the whole world, but they were my best of friends. everything and anything we did together, homework, groupwork, class discussion etc. u name it. yet ever since the parting of classes in sec 3, the gap within has breached to a sorry state where it seems near impossible to bridge. impossible. it would take a lot of effort for either side to want this friendship to continue. apart from the occasiional hi and byes along the corridor. not much is said. i remember the only time i teared was when i found out we were not in the same class.

on the same note, prior to that i always took my friends for granted. i finally realised how stupid. how childish i was. i remember, every few days i would throw tantrums because i wasn't happy about something. and i thank god that there were frenz to wake me up from my childishness. and i realised how much of a pain sometimes i was. yet the victim was not me, i, the pain-causer, tantrum-thrower cum angry person all the time was not the victim. to me at that point in time, the whole world revolved around me. why did he do that to me? why did he not get me into the same group work group? I was the centre of attention.

yet looking back, and only now, do i understand that the real person who takes the strain from all these was not me. my frenz were the victims of my emotional abuse. time and again, they came back to me to tell me not to get angry. and apologise. sometimes, it wasnt even their fault. but in order to appease me, they had to do that. why didnt i realise that before? i finally understand the reasons why they did what they did to appease me. they were afraid to lose a fren. they understood the fragility and sanctity of frenship. sometimes they could not help but feel angry. but they had to put the other party first. whatever anger they had inside was to be quenched and themselves lowered.

i thank you for being such understanding frenz.

unfortunately, tides have changed. from the tantrum thrower i learned to calm down. i realised. being angry and being the violent one makes no sense. not only do you get angry.. the world hates u. i just got angry todae. i was angry that my classmates koped my seat when i went to the toilet. yes it felt good to give them "face colour" to see. lian3 se4 kan4. when ms tang told me to move in i basically ignored her. until much later that is. but after thinking it thru, i thot it wasnt worth it to get angry over such a small stupid issue.

i started it. i was the dumb fuck who sent that stupid sms. i was the idiot who koped ur phone. all i want is your forgiveness. u must think. what in the world do u think u're talking about. you're the one at fault. you're the one who started it. and now u're demanding for forgiveness? i know forgiveness comes at a price. to forgive someone whose been evil to you takes courage. but who doesnt make mistakes? u want me to grovel at ur feet. u want me to tear of my face. i willingly do that. and i did that.

all i ask for is forgiveness. if to obtain forgiveness i have to tear up my birthday card in front of your eyes. then so be it. i value frenship. thats all i can say. while i still have the guts and face to. sorry. 6 times i tried with no reply.

Scale of 1-10:

1<-=-=-=-=-[X]-=-=-=-=->10

i just pissed someone off. i don't think that person would be reading my blog now. but if you do, i'm really sorry. i've sent you three smses and u never replied to anyone of them. i guess u're really angry with me. i know i've overdone it. it was too.. li2 pu3 and i did it without thinking. i'm sorry because i didn't know that it would hurt you so much. i thought it was a joke, but i was wrong. i'm really sorry. don't ignore me. please. sorry.

sigh. what was supposed to be a happy day at church turned out to be a terrible one. plus my computer spoiled for 3 days. and i nearly died in my utopia account. so horribly sad. damn damn damn. if i had known better i wouldn't have allowed that stupid com to spoil. nearly destroyed me. nevermind. its back to normal again. and yes. i'm not very happy because i've irritated someone.

sometimes when you do ppl wrong, that person feels angry. that is a natural response. usually if that person is a close fren, you feel really terrible and bad. if that person is just any other friend, you usually ignore and bochap until he/she gets better. i don't feel really nice now. for that stupid moment of pleasure, i upset a good fren. i'm really sorry. accept my apology. PLEASE.

my birthday, was alright larh. not many ppl wished me happy bdae in sch.. damn. i didnt have a publicity manager this year. hahaha. just joking. i got.. currently:

1. a cat pillow from the Moks and Yihan. my first gift on friday. =) its so cute~!
2. a bag of sweets from marks and spencers. no.. i dunno their boss. it was from hulin. so SWEET. =)
3. a name keychain that costs like $9. so not worth it.. my parents bought it, but it shows their love. =)
4. a converse bag and a kiddo bag. bleh. hahahahah. from the snjb ppl. thanks.
5. -yet to be received- hahaha. waiting for more stuff to come in.

yup. thats it. back to mugging history. 6 days to jap oral prelims. bad bad.


56 + 4 = 60. yes 60 days to graduation. but meanwhile i've got loads of shit to do. mug mug mug and more mugging. i'm mugging everyday. =) but i've not finished. the two things i'm most confident about would be my 2 sciences i.e. bio and chem. doing physics now.. dunno whether can finish. argh. and i'm still blogging. maybe its something not good to be blogging when ur prelims are 11 days down the road. oh well. i'll work hard!


my NEWLY updated wishlist. hehehe. so bu yao lian rite? =)

1. contact lens (doubt i'll get it. but i'll pray. hehe.)
2. a cute looking soft toy. =) just nice to be huggable.
3. lots of birthday cards with nice personalised messages. not like "HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY -from so-and-so-'
4. a nice bag. my current bags aren't very nice.. and i can't possibly bring my old bag to JC.
5. a hug from someone nice (maybe kiss? muahaha)after patting me on my back and saying "happy birthday"
6. something that surprises me. u all can ALL try ur best to trick me. hahaha.
7. cd. any kind that sounds nice.. though its not very logical to have so many cds.
8. new shoes. my blue casual ones.. quite nice, but getting old. i want NEW ones.

next up are my by-faith gifts:
1. 11 A1s for Os and Prelims.
2. Having to see growth in church. SNJB must not be the same.
3. Speak in tongues.
4. Be able to improve on my EQ and oratorical skills.
5. A better person who can encourage ppl and not put them down with every other thing i say.
6. Someone who will love me and someone whom i can love. =)

amen~!


arrgh. my parents celebrated my bdae 1 week earlier cos my dad wouldnt be in singapore on that day. how lame can that get. at first i didnt suspect anything.. cos nothing was there to tell me that there was a "birthday celebration". i didnt even see the cake. it was just another normal occasion going to a frenz house to eat steak cos her dad was good @ cooking it and my parents were good frenz with her parents.. so yea.

then before we left, my mum told me to take the camera. i was like "for what" and plus that camera was SUPPOSED to be mine.. ok not mine. but i was thinking of taking pictures with that camera and there was film inside. so anyway, i suspected it when cheriann said "i would not expose the secret" to my dad and so i guessed sumthing was up. but couldnt confirm it.. the final thing came when my sis came into the room and said can go out now..

lol. yea.. i teared. ok.. not teared. just teary eyed. abit moved. cos my parents usually didnt do such things and usually my bdae fell on a day when my dad was flying overseas.. oh well. this year was nice. plus i got pictures taken.. arrgh. nvm. destroyed my film of pictures.. its ok. its my 16th birthday afterall. how many 16th bdaes do you have.. plus it was at SOMEONE ELSE's house.. bleh. i've gtg home now.. blog later.


shit. same problem. luckily i saved my post. :P

arrrgh. my beautiful newspaper report story got deleted. okok.. just another article to spice things up and fire up the interesting debate.

GEP or not GEP.

some people may think i'm carrying it too far. that i'm saying that GEPs are reigning supreme in the current education or sumthing along that lines. others believe that i'm just PLAIN arrogant. some gep students (small caps again lol) think i'm giving a BAD name to gep students. etc etc. now i'll clarify whats happening in the current education system and clear up the bad air ok? =)
what is happening in the current system and whats this GEP system thingy about. Ok. first GEP = Gifted Education Programme. gu4 ming2 si1 yi4 is for the gifted. I didnt name the system. The MOE named it that way. (probably Lee Kuan Yew's idea cos he believed in elitism too ahhaah. but shant speculate lest i get sent into jail. bleh.) so this whole programme that lasts for 7 years is catered to suit the needs of the more gifted students.

why it has been named GIFTED education programme. firstly, you have to sit through two series of tests. screening tests. in p3 or p6. in p3, they test you on english and maths i think. yea. as for the p6 one i'm not sure. if you do well in ur PSLE, you get invited to take the test. so since i was a true blue gepper, i went into the programme in p4 and continued to sec 4.

apparently in the programme, we are funded by the ministry of education using taxpayer's money for the extra programmes we have. e.g. IRS, IP, Science Mentorship, KOOLkids (some computer stuff) etc. and the teachers in the GEP branches have different methods of teaching, ie. not just plain textbook nonsense, but more of the handson stuff and deeper and broader curriculum. so blessed to have "curriculum planners" in the GEP branch planning our INTERESTING curriculum. and the class sizes are smaller 20-30 max. to facilitate more attention on the students.

ok now the logical bit. GEP students form a mere... 28% of the secondary 4 population. and if you would count, the number of GEP students in all the schools in singapore number less than 10%. yes.. as such, we're forming the minority. and guess who doesnt really like us one single bit. yes. our dearest frenz who form the majority. who of course i shall not say, lest face some.. ISSUES. headon. dun like that. shall try to be.. as.. *blur* as possible here, but still get my point across. haha.

as you can see, we're not really well liked by our counterparts in school. it just happens that we're in the school but not OF the school. just like we're in the world but not of the world. =) same analogy. though our body and "school" are there, we're like a separate department altogether. though i study in RI, apparently the MOE takes more charge over the GEP students than the school itself though its an independent school. So i think we can be counted as a segregated social entitity by ourselves.

then. of course population matters. small population = close knit. ask any gep student, he probably knows EVERYONE in his gep batch. cos the GEP students don't mix classes with our express counterparts, the population is small, less classes, we mix around more, know each other better. however, when it comes to working together with the express, bad bad things happen? ok lets take CCA for example. majority of ppl in a CCA usually is express, cos they make the bulk of the students rite? and express teachers make the bulk of the teaching cohort, so the express teachers know the express students better, so better positions are given to them.
sounds very much like social studies and india and srilanka. where the sinhalese and the tamils are fighting hahaha. =) anyway. the majority gets EVERYTHING. walk around in school and the students don't mix. and impressions of each other arent THAT nice. back to the point. what i want to prove here in my prev blog entry is that GEPs have a right to be in the GEP cos they worked hard and got it. yea.. and i really hope that next time the future GEP students can proudly hold their head up high and be proud of their GEP heritage. and on the other hand, the frenz of ours should recognize this right of ours and not.. go "hmpph. arrogant bastard" and walk off. =)

btw, meritocracy is like elitism. just well hidden and a toned down version. is that not true? the best are rewarded for their abilities. the best will most of the time remain as the best because they've reaped the fruits of success and they know it tastes good. unless they become slack and drop off, thats a different story. whereas most of the weaker people will always remain at the bottom. if they were weak and tried hard, and became successful they would be at the top not bottom. my point is. once you're at the top, people invest in you and you become more successful. the weaker ones, nobody really cares despite the "we'll still treat you the same as long as you work hard". oh come on. face the world. whose gonna invest in some country like micronesia and hope it overtakes US as an economic powerhouse? :S

in meritocracy, the best are rewarded. in elitism the best remain the best and are still rewarded. and who says in meritocracy, the best remain the best. more often than not thats the case.

(i actually had a section on my reply to all the tags. it got deleted. damn. arrrghr~!! i'll do it tmr.)


yesterday i was walking back home then i started talking to myself. hahahaha. *stop giving me that look* oh man. i think it shows signs of stress or sumthing. yea.. but i started thinking about what i was gonna do next time. then i had this fantabulastic plan yea. prior to that, two sec 1s were asking why the difference between GEP and express students even when both take the same O level exams. scroll down if u wanna hear.

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my reply: the fact is that GEP students are more intelligent than express students. it has been proven through tests and that results show that gep students do better in both PSLE and the O levels on the whole. it just happens to be a flaw in the government's education system that the O levels examinations has to be put in place so as to ensure uniformity and the elitism in the education system is not so clearly shown. although it is present, the government is trying its best to hide it. thus in actual fact the geps are "bounded" by the education system and it is not fair to compare GEPS and express students just because BOTH take O levels.

furthermore, you ask why do the teachers use different methods to teach GEP students and express students. like i said, gep students do not like to be bound, thus they are taught to elasticise and go deeper into topics which they have interest in so as to cater to their specific needs and thirst for knowledge. on the other hand, the express students are given a lower hierarchy in the education system. look at a food pyramid. the ones at the top are usually the least. thus the way they are taught is different so as to serve as a reminder not to overstep their boundaries and remain happy in their rightful positions.

that was a thorough elaboration on my explanation to them. that's my point of view. but i've grown to be elitist. why are some loser gep (small caps) students not proud of their heritage? is it not their right to state that they are GEP students? after all. they got through the screening test in p3 and p6. and if you didn't get in. whether you took the screening test matters or not. whether you declined the offer to join the GEP or not, it doesnt matter. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO LOOK DOWN ON US GEP STUDENTS. we have qualified. we have proof. you do not have the right to discredit us.

as for those who go like "i could have gotten into the GEP programme if i wanted to, just that i didnt want it" and walk off shaking their butts happily. i look down on you. "i don't need to get into GEP. whats so good about it ANYWAY" you are pathetic. one of the greatest opportunities in life and you didnt grab it. compared to someone who grabbed it when it came, who are you to say that you're on EQUAL standing ground? it's like saying, i could have gotten to cambridge, but i didnt want to, so i went to NUS instead. and then u laugh at the cambridge students. the fact is that you didnt get to cambridge. the fact is that you didnt get into the GEP programme.

so whats so good about this GEP programme. oh nothing much. so little that the government spends PUNY pockets of taxpayers money on us. Those in primary school GEP should know what programmes they offer. And truly, the teaching methods are different. -can't you tell? just look at the express- the heavily subsidised extra curricular stuff and activities, heh, wait long long if you're in the express. still can shake butt so happily. you don't know what you're missing out on. and if you didnt realise, the GEP community is a close knit one. go to school and observe. the closest ones are the GEP classes. plus, we get to have inter school activities. RI, RGS, Dunman, ACSI, CHS, NYGH etc... ooh. u arent jealous ONE SINGLE TEENY WEENY BIT.

ok. thats all i have to say about the gep programme. actually i havent said anything about.. my great plans as i was talking to myself when i walked down the road home.. but nvm. i'll blog about it tomorrow.

DISCLAIMER: you are free to say whatever you want about the article printed above. it is by no means any form of arrogance of the writer, he is merely stating facts of a matter considered dear to his heart. *if you disagree with my article, you should be an express student. =)*


the more i think about it, the more i think nathan cmi. hahaha. u noe when he was doing the speech for the handover, it was so boring that i REALLY fell asleep. literally on the sofa. he isnt half as good at telling a boring speech as jee nee. oh well. hahaha. =) anyway, i think the handover's over. it is actually. yea. great day. potato got his A1, i got new KD mates in my utopia account (which i'm not supposed 2 be playing) and yea. i studied bio. tomorrow. got extra ss class. but theres ENGLISH. i'm looking forward to it and CLE. oooh nvm. sounds boring but i think will be fun.. =)


my birthday wish list. thought it was kinda cool cos everyone had a birthday wishlist. so i'll have one too.. hahahaa.

1. contact lens. (highly impossible, but i'll stick it here ANYWAY)
2. discman. (another highly impossible one too. cos of the price)
3. a holiday tour to some country at the end of the year. sigh that defeats the purpose of my wishlist.

==========please fold and tear along the dotted lines==================

lets try that again shall we.

1. a fluffy huggable SOFT TOY. i dun want it hard.. i like OTHER things hard. hmm. i like cats and bears. big big stuff wanted. (i.e. no small gifts ahahhaah must be LOUD.)
2. a surprise. a pleasant surprise. anything will do. just a surprise. =)
3. going out with friends on that day. but its so close to the prelims. i think only church frenz will go out with me.
4. a nice nice handmade birthday card.
5. a hug and a kiss and someone wishing me happy birthday.
6. SEX!?! hahahahaha. sex on 16th birthday. sounds kinky. =)
7. a birthday party. i've never had a birthday party in my life before. maybe i'll save that for my 18th birthday.
8. memorable bdae. i want EVERYONE to know its MY birthday.
9. someone to play a prank on me. a nice funny one. that ends off with a "HAPPY BIRTHDAY REUBEN!"
10. -no more ideas liao- u fill it in urself!
11. changed my mind, i want a CD. a nice worship CD. any kind, but must sound good. =)


i talked with alot of ppl today. i woke up at 12.30pm.. oops. that was late. lol. woke up, used the computer, then went to sleep. . i'll proceed to tell u abt the interesting things that happened. ok. i went to sleep again. ahahahaha. yes at around 2.30pm (man i am a pig) until 4pm. then woke up and studied. maybe i didnt. i cant really remember what i did, but i DID study. finished studying settlement, rather boring, not difficult, but just plain boring. ok. wait. that isnt interesting. then ate dinner, watched TV, studied development and came to blog. wanted to see who was online, but no one was. as in those that i would like to talk to.. nvm then.

ah yes the interesting bits. DREAMS. i had so many dreams i have difficulty remembering them. the last dream i had was my grandmother jumping about outside her flat. yes. OUTSIDE her flat. not outside as in those "open your door and step outside" that kind of outside. nvm u'll understand. shes 80 sumthing. or maybe 70 sumthing. can't really remember, then all those hdb flats have this aircon thingy outside the apartments. and above the aircon theres like this brick thingy, then i dreamt of her jumping up and down there on top a whole pile of newspapers. dunno how i didnt panic and let her continue jumping.

the second dream was that i was a criminal. and then i had this cool silver gun, which i was using to shoot at the cops. i was so mean. i shot at one of the cops and it hit his soldier. then i felt bad.. and i ran. then while they were chasing i continued shooting, luckily i missed. but dunno how, eventually i got caught. then i was so remorseful i went up to the cop i shot and apologised. whahahaahah. i'll never make it at being a criminal. hopefully i'll never have an opportunity to run from the cops. i'll be a law-abiding citizen. yay!


i FINALLY returned from peggy's house. ok. potato's house also. later he gets jealous. as per normal, i koped his small bolster for the 2 nites i stayed there.. mmmmhmm. smells really good. guess where it went.. -stares below- *evil cackle* yea. and before i came back i watched SINGAPORE IDOL.. so much for us not having other gods. oh well. lame me.

SINGAPORE IDOL is hilarious. the ppl are so.. spastic. yes. spastic. the only word to describe them. i have not seen any more spastic singaporeans on earth than those who went on national tv for that 1 minute of fame to throw their shit down the drain. i stress shit, not reputation. because they have none. and its as if everyone up there did not care about the repercussions on their career. for goodness sake its national tv!! i mean. even if they didnt want their faces, they could have donated it to.. some charity organisation. fancy acting spastic up there.

and when i mean spastic, i dun mean all those who cant sing but tried their best. i mean, those who really tried and really CMI, i have nothing to say. but its those really *dun-want-face* ppl who go up there that i cant stand.

first, there was this stripper. OH PLEASE. if you want to strip on NATIONAL TV, please at least look good first. yellow underwear under ANY circumstances never looks kinky or sexy in the first place. secondly that face of his.. looks terribly gay. i suspect that guys some exhibitionist freak with streaking tendencies.. man. rule of the day: PLEASE LOOK GOOD IF U WANT TO STRIP!!

second, there was this shanghai/chinaman by the name of rocky wang (cool name)who was so operatic that got chased out. soo poor thing. not his fault. but when ppl ask u to leave, stop acting like a spoilt brat and leave with dignity. so what if u came from shanghai?? DIAOZ. u come from overseas the whole world must give u ten million chances to sing?

third, there was this guy who didnt stop singing. lol. they had to call the security guards in. man. life sux. the judges must have had a hard hard time.. *save their ears* bleh... :S ok. thats all i'll comment. will be catching the next episode. it sounds EXCITING enough with that banana man. haahha.


3 days of no blogging. hmm. cos i didnt have access to the computer, *glares at funing and fuyun* no larh joking. hahaha. anyway, those two pigs are dunno doing what now, i presume funings sleeping cos shes lying on the bed like a lifeless pig and yea... doing sumthing. so it must be sleeping. and fuyun's probably studying chem downstairs but dozing off halfway thru as well. ahaha. both of them are sleepy pigs.

i've been here for 2 days. supposedly to STUDY. apparently, not much work has been done and its 19 days to prelims. !@#!%!^ i think i should go downstairs and finish up my geog. not that i'm REALLY finishing, but i shud continue studying geog. hasnt been very fruitful. but i loved taking the neoprints. once i get home i'll scan in the pictures and then u'll get to see them. so cute~!


heh. ponnnnnned. ponnnnnnned. no. i didnt surf ponnnnnnned. neither did i meet with a ponnnnned-tianak. nor did i go to ponnnnnned-gol. didnt play ping ponnnnnnned either. i ponnnnned school. SSSSHHHH~~~. dun tell them. its the second or third time i did it this year. oh well. body was reasoning to myself, wads the use of going to school for 2 hours for a lousy celebration. sleep in bed, save on the effort and the bus fares too. why make life difficult for urself. that always seems to be the excuse i give myself not to go for choir every sat last time. hahaha.

i thot the sleep was WELL-SPENT. i dreamt.. of two people. two friends. previously they were such good friends. and seriously, they were the best of friends. but i guess society didnt like them together. it was like those drama shows where the 2 main characters really love each other with all their hearts but things just come between them to stop them. it sounds like a drama serial. anyway, they couldnt be together, which was very sad. but furthermore, because of the intolerance of the present day society (oh well. actually i have to support the society's viewpoint as a christian) they broke up. and from best of friends, became the worst of enemies.

from that day on they stopped talking to each other. stopped. parents didnt allow. cos sadly, even their parents found out abt their relationship. in my dream, they got together. in my dream, they were once again reunited. i should say, i would want the friendship but not their relationship to continue. cos in the end, both parties would get hurt. but i think, the good old memories always seem to stay and like a wound that never heals, time and time again, it reopens and hurts. whats more, they have to face each other everyday. oh well. nuff said. both are such nice people, dun want either one to get hurt. dun want either one to be sad. but who am i to comment. i am but a bystander.

a bystander. meanwhile, i shall be thickskinned to go request for moor house's CUT.


ahhahaha. i had the LONGEST LONGEST lesson hours today. i shall tell you ALL about it, cos if you're on this blog, you probably are going to read about all thats happened in the GREAT ONE'S (me) life. =)

oh well. it started off in the morning at 7.15am. as per normal, i missed the bus, took the 7.30am bus and sneaked in as normal. i'm really surprised no teacher called me. oh well.. i'm good at it. =) plus i waited so freaking long for the prefect at the gate to move away before i could sneak in. i think i'm getting better AND better at it. not that its something to be really proud of.

after which normal lessons, and tang told us that jee nee would give her her period next week or sumthing along those lines. well yes. every cheered.. hahahaha. silly old jeenee's lessons are so terribly boring that one could fall asleep in her class even if he slept at 6pm the previous night and woke up at 6am the next morning. yes. shes THAT boring. always going thru her silly comprehensions and NEVER letting us do oral. i mean oral is so fun. just wads wrong with her man?

then played cards during recess. yes. its becoming a norm. i played against benny during recess. pwned him with my psychic deck against sinchi's. if u dunno what that means, benny's using sinchi's deck against me. then went on for more lessons, then dismissed. went to third lang, slacked around shit. did some choukai, bunpou quiz etc. etc. then went back to school for MORE lessons.

for half an hour we played cards cos lesson started at 5.30pm and by the time we got back it was only 5.00pm. played multiplayer with cheesiong and benny, was winning cos i was manipulating the both of them.. hahaha. oopsie. mind games, i love them. hahahah. =) nvm, that was until tang stepped into class, announcing that she could not eat dinner with us that night cos she had some family emergency.

halfway thru lessons, her phone rang, she stepped out to listen. she came back in.. looked as if she was gonna cry, then couldnt continue the lesson. she just stared at the screen and yea.. for like half a minute.. clutching her head. and her eyes, as if she were tearing. then she stepped out, made a phone call and came back in. after that all was fine.. dunno what happened. but i dun wanna noe.

after lesson ended at 7.30pm all were hungry and terribly hungry. all went to S11 EXCEPT for that gang of antisocial nut cases who went to J8 instead without telling us. !@%$@#^#&. argh. that was made up of... nvm. dun say. in the end we ended up sitting around a table playing around with Jquek. hahahaha. sorry jquek but i have to quote you here.

"i turn yaksy on" and "i would have to swim down to mardiana's trench" bleh. wads wrong with jquek. such bad taste.. :S hahaha. tmr's national day celebration. i'm wearing red. yay~! hope its fun.. bleh.


today was cross country, but sec 4s are exempted from it. well class dismissed early today. omg. for once yak is nice.. we were the only gep class not to have lesson. maybe even the only sec 4 class. but that i'm not too sure, but the rest of the classes had lesson and yet we were dismissed at 1.35pm. oh well. sch's boring except for recess, which we would snuggle to play *poker* cards or *pokemon* cards. hmmz. sad lives we lead.

i played with joey and alvis.. ahhahaha. of all people them?? beat him a few times with my psychic deck, lost a few times. but i won more than i lost and if i used my haymaker deck i wouold beat the shit out of him. was giving chance only. and benny actually beat sinchi's psychic deck because he decked out?? :S lolx.. poooooor sinchi. he had like a chao thick hand, but a small deck to draw from. he conceded in the end. and if benny a NOOOB can beat him, my deck must be good. *wink wink*


hey~! its finally back to work again. oh man. i just realised a sad reality. its a pathetic week 6 now. shit. shit. shit. prelims start in week 10. :S and here i am blogging. reality kicks in. i was arguing with derek that its only week 5, being the odd week. but THEN, i realised i was wrong. it seemed that dramafeste week laid stagnant for one whole week. like time froze, i got into dramafeste, then kicked out. sigh. i wish it was that way. but nvm time is not irreversible.

i've gotta start on my piles of work. lemme see, i've nearly finished SS, everything's done. tomorrow i'll start on my geog or hist. argh. the biggest mugging topics ever. those 2 suck to the core. plus theres third lang, which probably means i'll be exhausted after that, all hot and sticky. bleh. third lang.. is so lousy lor. not only the building is lousy, the classrooms are lousy, the teachers are *erm* lousy. and even my GRADES are lousy. work hard and do well for 3rd lang reuben!!


sadly, bayley didnt win a single shit except for best director. well. wadya noe. congratz to azizul for being the best house. chengchye was wonderful. i underestimated moor. their show was so touching i nearly teared. well. yea. it talks about this warped father and son relationship and a father who WAS gay with this erm. psychiatrist, who happens to be treating the son because he got knocked down by a car and is suffering from amnesia. its a really good script. of sourness, angst and kinship. touching.

the actors were great. every house had wonderful actors. in no particular order, buckley: wang ting was terribly the best, cos the rest just paled in comparison. really proves that there are no small roles, only small actors. moor: isaac you rock. and that samjoe guy. dunno whats his name. but his face was so sad and so real throughout. you two were the best. morrison: i didnt get to watch, sadly, though i thought wenjun, navjote and shawn would have been the best few. hullett: hadri was good but so was that joel guy. lol. very very good.

some points that i DIDNT find so well. also in no particular order, buckley: the show was rather draggy and low energy. the audience fell asleep. but somehow the judges were quite impressed with the script. dunno why. moor: the psychiatrist was slouching throughout. the doctor couldnt enunciate his words properly cos i think he had braces. morrison: no comments. didnt see their play. hullett: the sleepy guy who got dumped by KIM could start off by speaking up and clearly. really couldnt hear him under his mumbling (even though i was in the first row)

well thats my point of view. not all views are to be taken seriously. but anyway, i'm feeling terrible now. after some unfortunate incident that seok whee did. HORRIBLE WHORE. guess what the hell she did. at the prize giving ceremony. there were 6 nominees for best actor, best promising actor and best promising young actor. 1st name wang ting, 2nd name reuben foo, 3rd name sam joe, 4th name joel etc etc. i forgot the other names.

then seok whee told the emcees that she made a mistake. well. so of course one of the 6 had to go back and one of them had to be from the 4 names i mentioned since the other 2 werent impt and ONE of them happened to be me. it was REUBEN YEO. not REUBEN FOO. that was the best promising actor. well the rest. needless to say. you figure it out. i felt like slapping the bitch out of that whore. well of course she was courteous enough to laugh it off after the whole thing. BITCH WHORE.

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