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the sound of waves,
lapping the shore.
just like the songs you used to sing.
the gentle breeze,
caressing my face.
reminds me of you.
i see the sunset,
with your head on my shoulders.
your hand in mine,
we would have been so happy.
together.

last night was horribly fantastically euphoric. it was the best best show other than STTD, that i've performed in. partly due to the fact that i only performed for STTD and this dramafeste.. hahaha. nvm i'm spastic. but i guess, everything was great. it was really good. i mean, the energy was there, everyone sorta gave their best, and even though the crowd was bimbotic (quoted from woochiao and wesley) they sorta loved the show. esp cousin mak. hahaha.

the RGS ELDS girls were there, i saw kalpana, shumin, lynette, the 2 sarahs, amanda, joanna, melissa and who else arh?? lolx cant remember. oh yes, there was shauna and the other girls. oh man, they were so nice. u noe what, they baked cookies for uSSS!!! wowwee. i couldnt wait. when i got home, i tore open the wrappers and tasted them, and they were fantastic. now i wish RI had home econ classes. lolx.

kalpana, shumin and kat (who didnt go but sent the cookies anyway) gave me 5 of these almond cookies. they werent those normal ones, hard and stuff, but they were actually chewie and nice and sweet. oh man.. it melted my heart. lolx.. no larh.. but it was really really nice of those girls to send stuff like these. home baked coookies. mmhmm. shauna and the i forgot who (sorry) had sent these star shaped chocolate chip cookies also.. very nice also. i hadnt eaten chocolate chip cookies since like eons ago. *smacks lips*

yea and the flowers. i got flowers too. 3 of them. lemme see. woochiao gave me a ginvera (altho he thinks its a daisy, but nvm. THANKS anyway!), azizul gave me a sunflower, THANKS! cheng chye gave me a dunno-what-u-call-it, but it was the one on sale at RI i think.. very nice of him. THANKS too! =) and best wishes for azizul and chengchye. their shows tonight, when i come back i'll blog about which house won.. hahaha. may the best house win. (i always say that don't i)

but it was a memorable night, wished that i took more pictures, but sadly didnt bring a camera along.. well at least miki and woochiao brought theirs along. thank goodness i still have SOME memories of my probably last drama event in my life. and they filmed it down. oh man. i cant wait to get my hands on that disc. i've never had such a big role in my short drama career and it will be a wonderful memory. hope they get it out before i leave RI. =)

meanwhile, i shall go bathe and get ready. we're having "reunion dinner" together with the bayley cast. dunno what they're gonna eat, but we'ree supposed to be at J8 at 6pm. guess ppl will be late.. but i better not be. :S


tomorrow marks the beginning and the end of dramafeste. the last event in my life as a sec 4 before i begin my fullsteam mugging. its such an oxymoron. what comes ends so quickly. i remember sing to the dawn. sing to the dawn.. lasted 2 days. friday and saturday. 4 shows, but it ended just as quick. time flies when you want it to crawl. time drags when you want it to fly like the wind. i guess, things never work out the way you want them.

well. i've got a few ppl supporting me for the afternoon and night show. maybe not ME in particular, but as in the sec 4 GEPs who are performing. i'm acting for bayley. ryan, joel and tim yam are acting for morrison. azizul is acting for hullett. and yeong chyuan for moor. dunno if hes acting or he's just a crew. should be the latter. its gonna be a tough fight, not that i wanna discredit any house, but i'm really hoping bayley will do well. all that i've put in my effort for, all that i've tried, i give it all tomorrow night.

i pray that i will not screw up because its the major last project i'm ever gonna cherish in RI and like woo chiao says, it may be my last drama performance in my whole life.. JC drama is usually supposedly not for guys. more girls are the acting ones. =) but who noes i can join them.. ahaha. not that i'm a girl, but if i have the passion for it, i'll definitely join it.

i feel for the cast. everyone no matter how small a role plays a part in this whole big production. together we win as an ensemble. or else we go down together as an ensemble. this is not an individualistic title. this is for the house. i guess, may the best house win.. and maybe bayley wont fare that bayley. if i'm moved to tears tomorrow, we're really bonded. should i bring my camera?? sigh. i dunno.


revelation. i was reading QT materials today and i sorta have a strong feeling about it. i realised after reading living by the flesh and law is so burdenful. its so disheartening and difficult to get right with god by YOUR own strengths. it's almost impossible. my relationship is getting from bad to worse, i've done QT like everynight last time, but ever since hmwk came in, i sorta got an excuse to not do it. and i'm really sorry.

it's really hard, but i'll try. the bible verse today says all those living by the holy spirit have already crucified their bodies on the cross, which means that their old sins and sinful nature have already passed away. i do remember a time when i just put the days into god's hands and everything went so smoothly. but it seems like i've recarried it up again. something's wrong.. i need to know the answer, yet i cant seem to find out enough. its sad..

i must read. read more. the word of god is good.


reality check. its 3 days away from dramafeste, 33 days away from prelims, 30 days from prelims after dramafeste, not to count its less that 30 days from my birthday, actually its 24. dunno if i got the maths right, but its on the 21st of august. =) i'm NOT expecting ANY presents from my classmates. actually i'm half expecting more presents from teachers than students, but i'm not too sure. dun get my hopes too high. but the horrible prelims set in one week after my birthday. isnt that sad. but isnt as sad as those who have their birthday during PRELIMS or Os. muahahaha.

today played soccer, but the ball flew from the legs to the face, straight into my specs cutting a deep red gash across the left side of my face leaving an ugly scar on the area between my eye and the nose. was bleeding like siao when i first got hit. my specs got bent and it hurt!! man. argh. terrible. nvm its gonna heal, but meanwhile, ugliness sets in. i've always been handsome, but this.. ARGH. destroys my handsome face. HAHAHAHA.

dramafeste is dragging. its difficult to act well. its SO hard. sigh. if i could have done better i would. but i'm trying my best. somehow reacting to scenes are so difficult. when u see something on TV, the rest of the world just stares at the person speaking and usually at anyone time, theres only one person speaking and the camera is zoomed in on him when he talks, so the rest dun need to "react". whereas in drama, everyones on stage, everyones looking at you no matter if you talk or not, so u have to do something. and i'm running out of actions.

wesley dusnt want me to be the slut/whore/bitch that i prefer to act as. i mean.. its a natural talent. hahaha. =) i act best as one of the stated above. maybe its my character. maybe its just me. i mean.. it just comes so easily being a bitchy school teacher, or a slutty salesperson or a whore-rible person. but no. i'm a nice guy.. nvm nvm. ishak will be composed. btw, ishak is the name of my character!! very little supporting dramafeste.. sadly. and btw, quah is doing our makeup. thank goodness not seok whee, but elaine quah. *phew*

back to work!


hmm. just came back from cutting my hair. its short and its long. ahhahaha. its shortly long cos some parts are short and other parts are long. and its like. strands sticking up amidst the shortness. and yea. it looks different. unique. weird.. no. not weird. weird doesnt sound nice. unique sounds nice. hahaha. =) wonder whats for assembly tomorrow. sigh. assembly is boringness. but its gonna be one of my last few assemblies of the year.

well. i am watching X men and mugging my dramafeste script. hoping to finish my chinese zuowen by tonite. which is quite a mean feat. but since i slept so long this afternoon that i may not need to sleep tonite. maybe not. but yea. i'm gonna do work. lots and lots of work. plus tmr is the dramafeste rehearsal. i think its light or tech rehearsal or sumthing along those lines. i hope i just dun screw it up. man.. i'm the main character. if i screw up, i can just bang my head against the wall and dun stay in bayley anymore.

woo chiao said that i must memorise more to my script. what am i saying. stick more to the script i mean. cos i'm improvising and forgetting my lines along the way. so i guess i better.. memorise?? =) i've memorised. now i need to review and ensure they flow like water.. so that i wont forget once theres an audience. its quite scary having so many ppl watch u on that night. sigh. hope i do i good job.

anyway i need to start mugging. bye~!


its only 11pm. i woke up at 1pm. plus slacked around. didnt finish venice like i wanted to.. still have to write zuowens, mug more venice, mug dramafeste script. finish physics. die liao. so much to do. plus i need to trim my overgrown bush. so ugly and long now.. nvm. dunno. i'll leave tmr to god. never ever worry so much. and we just came up with a new name for SNJB. snjb = sanctified.numinous.justified.blessed. wow. so cool~!


came back from suntec. no it wasnt to the rock. it was mass studying with my dearest potato. hahaha. hmm. i dunno. i finished my history essay, started studying SS Venice even when tang hasnt covered that or come to that bit. its good to be ahead. then once i finish SS i can move on to another subject. like geog or sumthing.. but its good that my revision is starting even though i dun have a fixed plan, but i'll do it anyhow.

was quite productive i shud say. didnt end up talking. plus it was quite good cos i got to revise some chem concepts, which i would have forgotten if potato didnt ask me. and it was organic chem my worstest chapter in chemistry, must go and draw those funny looking monomers, polymers, esters, alkanes, alkenes, alcohols, carboxylic acids, proteins, fats, nylon, terylene. draw until ur brain looks like.. nvm.

dramafeste rehearsals, well. nvm. i got insulted by woo chiao today. dunno if its true. he says my acting is worse than cousin maks. well what can i say. maybe i was tired? maybe i had so many lines to remember? but nvm, those are just excuses. i dun care. i must act well. go and polish up on my facial expressions. i seem to have lots of "nothing to do" scenes where i just hear cousin mak rubbish on and on nonstop. sigh.

nvm. i need help. anyone good @ acting. tell me!!! argh. i watched our STTD cds. nostalgic feeling. and i finally noe how 2 speak gibberish. will go train it up. yayayayay~!


havent been blogging much due to the lack of time these few days. return back from drama feste rehearsals late, eat, watch tv, bathe, sleep. thats my routine for the past few days. argh. anyway, i'm back to blog before i get off the com. and my dads at home these few days so theres competition for the use of the computer. and the computer been's shifted backwards towards the window, dunno why, maybe its cos the chair wont block the tv then.

today nothing fun again. well i finally got back my english paper. much to my surprise it was an A2. well. my standard of english isnt really THAT good. so i wasnt expecting really high marks. truly it was the summary that pulled me up. i got 22/25. and i scored full marks for content. found 17 content points instead of the required 15. not bad huh?

apparently some guy in my class caused another guy to lose his A2 by dunno telling the teacher something. i'm not gonna name names here just in case the certain person reads this entry. lol. its good not to make enemies in RI u noe. never know when they're gonna start being mean to u. esp the time when O levels and prelims draw near, make more frenz while i still can because before long we're gonna part.

talking about parting, we took pictures for our jap class today. due to the ugliness of the classroom walls, i persuaded the teacher to let us take the photo downstairs. as pernormal, her bitchiness and unhappiness that i was taking too long was overwhelming. plus that bitch on an endo-sensei was making noise and kbkbing all the time cos she was helping us take the photo and she was having a class upstairs.

every two seconds she would be like "hayaku" or a "shizukani" which translated means faster and keep quiet, because there were classes on the ground floor. then this sec one choir guy who saw me started waving at me.. hahaha. guess what, the teacher thought he was trying to cheat cos they were having a test and she went off to shut all the windows so that he could not see me. gosh. teachers nowadays. paranoid.

i still remember last time during jap class bryant chiang and i would "he2 zuo4 yu2 kuai4" which meant cheating during our jap tests. when dunno i would knock tables, and he would always sit next to me, so if i dunno anything just ask him.. without the teacher finding out of course. and i tried to cheat for my.. sec 2 EOY paper. i had this little red notebook filled with all the stuff i learnt and happily stuffed it in my pocket.

sadly or fortunately, the teacher didnt allow me to go to toilet despite my telling him that i was very urgent. hahaha. he said wait until it finishes. so i had no chance of referring to my "little red book". in the end i didnt do as well.

recess and during break in jap class played pokemon. pwnzed the shit out of the others with pokemon card decks. hahahaha. beat justin like 3 times in a row. =) neh neh. my deck is good. mingren used my deck. as i could see, he wasnt really pro at pokemon. i guess i'm much much better. =) but no use, just being good @ pokemon gets me no where.

most of my results come out liao. english just got back today, results are as follows:

English: 35/50 (70%, A2)
A Maths: 40/80 (50%, C6) bleh.
E Maths: not known yet.
Physics: 66/80 (83%, A1)
Chemistry: 68/80 (85%, A1)
Biology: 79/90 (88%, A1)
Social Studies: 21/25 (84%, A1)
History: 21/25 (84%, A1)
Geography: 35/50 (70%, A2)

No. of A1s = 5 (should be 6 counting emaths), No. of A2s = 2, Others = C6 for A mAths. (i will do better definitely.)
My current L1R5 = 7 damn. i was aiming for a 6.. nvm. it will improve. yup. thats all!



thank goodness i've not visited the toilet to tear. =) lolx. it's been a better day. a very much better day today. other than the fact that i had to like rush and run and sprint like i've never sprinted before first thing in the morning to catch my silly 410 bus, its rather alright. btw, thanks to those who encouraged me on. results arent everything. i guess its really but another commontest. i'll just work harder next time. =)
 
today got back my chemistry, my physics, my SS and my history. sigh. i wanted to top the class at least in one of those. but the asshole justin cheng stole all the damn titles. and i worked really hard and i dun care, i wanna be the one who does better than him for prelims. my physics i said i got 81, but found a mistake, so ET gave me one extra mark, when converted to percentage it becomes 82.5% rounded up to 83%. not bad eh? i'm tied 5th in class for physics.
 
at least thats a great confidence booster because i've not done really well for physics last year. next was chemistry. hmm. i got 68/80. 3rd in class. first was anrong with 71, justin with 69 and then me with 68. it sux. i was top for chem EOY last year. ok. tied top with the chairman of science club. that isnt too bad issit. but i dunno. anrong's doing rather well and so is justin. i'll most likely be 3rd in class with my horrible results. and my dad doesnt acknowledge it. :S
 
then it was SS and History. jee nee was sick or dunno why never come or sumthing. tang koped her period. during cheewan's lesson, tang peeped her head in and told the class that she was taking over jee nees period and the whole class went "yea!!" lol. 4M was the class with the highest number of marks above 20 in the whole gep cohort for SS. more than 4R. i contributed to it!! i got a 21. =)
 
similarly for my history, also got a 21! not bad. considering it were upon 25, but i dunno. the top for SS was justin again. with a disgusting 24. such great ambitions. so i got an 84 for my combined humanities. sadly. thats a pathetic 3rd in class. anrong got both 21s, so he equaled my score, !@#@#%, justin got 24 and and 23 (ss and hist) so he got a 94% and wenwei, who happened to tycotically get a 20 and 23 got an 84. why!!!! i'll be more specific in my prayers next time. u all just watch me win it. hahahaha. =)
 
yup thats abt all that i've gotta say. dramafeste rehearsals again tmr. getting damn bored already. wished i've never joined. but i think i would be happy when the shows shown. =) lolx.. till then. byee~!


the toilet is the only place i can find solace in.
 
i teared. not because of my results. but the disappointment i'm facing. i finally got back 2 more papers today. additional mathematics and biology. one of which i screwed the shit out of and the other i did very well in. i got 40/80 for additional maths and 88/100 for my biology. but yet i never cried over my maths. i was numb.
 
when i told my parents my marks, very well the same response they gave for a million other subjects, tests and exams. the subjects i did well in were shrugged off with a "its-part-of-your-responsibility" look. nothing else after that. no encouragement to do better, no rewards, not even just a "great, you did well."
 
yet when i get back something less than expected. usually anything below a seventy, i'll get a scolding. heh. life's a wonderful for me. i so simply love their bitching and fucked up comments. "why couldnt you do better? playing warcraft III? playing bridge?" hahaha. ya. i'm not worried about my results AT ALL.
 
it all boils down to the fact that they don't know me well. they don't know how competitive i am. they don't even know that i care more for my marks than they do for their son. they don't know that i always wanted to know my marks ASAP. they don't know that i fight with teachers for the least of marks. i was pissed with ET in sec 2, was pissed with court in sec 2 eoy, was pissed with yaksy in sec 3, was pissed with cheewan and yak in sec 4. no i dont love my marks.
 
i tried opening up. i talked to them about my marks. was i forced to tell them? no. if i kept my fucking mouth shut they wouldnt have known a shit about how the hell i fared in my commontests. hah. me and my big mouth. everytime i open up to share something, i get nothing but a slap in the face. nothing but a slap for not doing well.
 
he gave me clothes. he gave me a house. he gave me an education. he gave me money. the rest was kept in his pocket. he is the reason why i am today. he is the reason i'm emotionally inclined. he is the cause of my feminism. he made me what i am now. because he never showed that he loved me. maybe its his work. maybe, i don't know. i dont want to.
 
so much for the bible wanting us to have strong bonds with the family. so much for paul emphasizing the importance of families. hah. everything in theory is to be doubted when done in the practical.
 
i vow never to share again anything. everything shall be kept to myself. i'd rather have no acknowledgement for my own effort and the stuff i've done well. than to be slapped and ignored. you say i crave for attention. you say i ask too much. i say all i want is you to nod and show that you care.
 
it's another bout of examinations. my fucking mouth will be shut from today onwards. dun blame me for being what i am. because you caused it. once bitten twice shy. why should i be so dumb to be slapped again and again. at least i have a father in heaven who knows everything about me. at least.


yet another day in church. yet another day after church. we went for lunch with zing, huili, shuxian and weixian plus the old guys i.e. wanshui, chenjie and weiwen. zhiyong had to go off earlier. we waited for zing like.. for EONS. (yes peg thats my favourite word) she was "so touched until she wanted to cry" and huili also "wanted to cry" because we waited for her so long.
 
tmr is the start of a new week in school. erm. i dunno what to expect. but i hope its fun. as per normal dramafeste rehearsal again. i must go memorise my lines. argh, so horribly long. but i guess i'll manage. otherwise i'll be slammed by wesley. and we're learning some dance. dunno if its gonna be fun. but i realised i've never learnt how 2 dance and i think i will probably suck terribly at it. so anyhow i'll give it a try.
 
just finished dinner. i think i stink. gonna go bathe, do QT then sleep. no more late nights. and i havent studied this weekend. i'll start on SS soon. sigh. a pathetic 6 weeks to prelims in week 10 of term 3. i must start on my letter writing before its too late. lol. many many letters to deliver. hope i dun forget anyone. =) it'll be great to give like nearly everyone a letter. soo cool~! tata.


blogspot changed its settings. dunno why. yahoo changed its front page. dunno why. reuben didn't study much today. dunno why. mingjun's blog has music. i know why. it's there cos i put it there. hahaha. *flirtatious wink* i've been looking at people's blogs. zings, huilis, pegs, potatos, shuxians, dinos, mingjuns, and it's been a sort of erm. repeated cycle everyday. maybe i like to be kay poh go and look at what people say about their day.. hahaha. i dunno.
 
its been so long since i've been to city harvest. its sorta miraculous how i ended up there. my friend told me about this ice cream party long long ago like i think 1 year plus already. then i went with him. after that i joined the church on sat services. went for more than half a year. then suddenly my fren, the one that invited me there, stopped going. he never ever told me why. i dunno also. then after that i became very busy, like spontaneously. i remember, it was cos of Sing to the Dawn, so i couldnt go on sat nites.
 
yea.. then i stopped. currently i'm not there anymore. i'm watching via internet broadcast.. they're praise and worship has not dropped. they still rank first on my praise and worship band. lol. even NCC can't compare to them.. dunno why. but their praise and worship is spectacular. theres this female praise and worship leader. wow. shes spectacular. love her anointed-ness.
 
yesterday at NCC there was this guy who sings totally totally fantastically good. omg. i wish i was like him. maybe if i pray hard. pray for a good singing voice. pray for a nice voice and anointing as a praise and worship leader, i'll be able to have it. but i'm so unclean. i feel so sinful these few days. weird dreams. weird weird dreams. plus the things that i do. sigh. unholiness is creeping into my life.
 
i thought of doing work today. woke up at 12plus. didnt go for the career forum. thought it was a whole load of bullshit anyway. i'll probably ask my frenz what happened there. :X lol. didnt do much work, used the com, walked around. finally started on english TYS before dinner. then just finished. and here i am blogging. maybe i'll blog again tonite. see how first.


too tired to blog yesterday after coming back from dramafeste rehearsal. bathed and slept. nothing else. other than messaging potato that i would be going to church todae with  him and the rest.
 
just now, i was munching. munching. munching. tuna bread from bread talk not bad. my mum bought like baskets of bread enough to feed 5000. nah. exaggeration. hehe. anyway, i still thought the bread was rather nice. as in cos she bought a new lot today, she bought like another lot 2 days ago, then there was this tuna bread left over, so i just ate it. at first i wanted to take from the lot she bought todae, but she was like "you finish the old one first then eat the new one"
 
after nearly finishing the bread (there was only one mouthful left) i commented to my mum that the bread tasted a bit bitter. then she was like "got spoil anot?" i mean. how i know?? i finished it anyway and went on to consume the tuna bread from the new lot. sadly, unfortunately, the new lot of tuna bread didnt taste bitter. i guess. i wont die of food poisoning, but i dunno, maybe stomachache tomorrow. she was still like "lucky tabitha never eat" diaoz. my eyes.. are rolling. hahahaha.
 
just came back from NCC with potato, zing, huili and blur queen aka ms potato. i've been thinking alot about religion today. i don't know why. i sat in the auditorium and thought and thought. especially during praise and worship. some very logical questions came up during that time. and i couldnt answer them. it regarded man's interaction with god. and somehow sadly those questions seemed to be very against any form of religion. maybe was the devil, i dunno, but somehow the logical mind seems to be an enemy.
 
i heard somewhere that good sermons, great worship could be achieved through certain techniques. and there is tis fixed form of "making people feel good" sermons, "making people feel good" prayers. it should have been from zhou mu shi. and i dunno. somehow that thought struck me that, what if everyone in church was putting up a show? it's just my opinion. as in. praise and worship is visual. you do not feel what the worship leader is feeling. what if it's just a performance, an act with all the eyes closed and "into-worship" kind of image he/she portrays?
 
i mean such things can be learnt. prior to that he/she may have like "training" in that field and through practice it can be easily achieved. even i can do that! hahaha. but what is the truth behind it? when the pastor prayed, i noticed, he prolonged his words, especially words with the S sound.. graceeee, not gracey but grace-ssssss. peace-ssss. and so many other words. plus it was a prayer filled with many promises from the bible. it suddenly felt so fake. was it a farce? just to make the people in the service feel good and feel blessed?
 
frankly i don't know. i don't know the answers to all my logical questions. all that i've raised are rather valid points in my opinion. and i always thought to myself. if i could get into a religion, constantly just learning how to "act", will i be able to get to its highest post available, and when i achieve it, i will tell everyone that the religion is a farce. is that possible? i don't know. i don't know. well at least nobody has tried. =)
 
a logically sound mind is a dangerous weapon. as i age, i have more doubts, more questions left unanswered. yet i hope all these silly questions of a thinking logical mind will not affect my faith. if i hadn't the foundation, i would have been like a house built on sand, poof gone with the wind for good. hmm. using my thinking mind in the wrong areas, esp when i don't use it for A maths exams.. wonder why. ahahha.
 
so many questions. so little answers.

"the queen and pariah have arrived." - Reuben when Tang and Yak stepped into class for lifeskillssss. heh. guess which ones which?



a slap from a friend hurts more than a scald from an enemy. what you love most also hurts you the most. today was choir AGM. held in the Lecture Theatre for a gruelling 3 hours, from 1530 to 1830. it was a great surprise today, because mrs koh actually sat in for AGM. for the past few years, she has NEVER attended AGM because she's very emotional, and would easily break into tears after the chairman/vice chairman speaks. i was sorta shocked when she walked in at around 1630. she told us later that she came today because she was very close to our batch and she happened to be our year head also. how touching.

but that didnt change the particularly sad chain of events todae. after today i realised that the choir was never worth investing into *hardens heart* i stepped into the LT this afternoon with no expectations, except for just a letter from the sec 3s as that had been the tradition, writing letters for the leaving batch. i wouldnt have complained if i only got 1 letter. if only. *sigh* although i admit i've never really committed myself to the choir, least they could do was for a thank you note. i noe u might be thinking thank you for what?? but at least i helped out?? helped out in the choir camp 2004. was a sop and an alto for like 2 years??

gosh. wads wrong with those retards. but i'm not particularly sad/angry. like i said, what you love most can hurt you the most. thank god choir isn't one of my main priorities in school or else i would have cried and felt hurt throughout the whole nite. all i can say is i am disappointed. yet after four years in the choir, i do have a feeling. a very mild one. much as i would have liked to say that i had no attachments to the choir, i cannot say that. 4 years is a long time. all the PT, all the practices, all the concerts and all the SYFs.

yet i hate them. i hate them for forgetting me. the current choir chairman was one of my favourite sec 3s. he was the best sec 3 in my camp group in 2004. all i got was a slipshod made-in-30-minutes-candle-cum-aluminium-foil-wrap supposedly made during recess today. WOW. such sincerity. i'm so touched. thanks once again. i don't know. maybe i was right. choir was not worth investing into.

i have a mission to complete, to write a remembrance letter to everyone i noe in RI (the closer ones) and give it to them before i graduate. but now it seems that i wont have to write to the few in choir. the people in my group all got their high posts in choir. one became a sectional leader, the other became choir chairman. but they forgot me. as such. i shant bother. but maybe my heart will soften.

why do i put in effort for choir? writing letters to them when they dun give two hoots? maybe i shudnt. maybe i shudnt soften. maybe i should just harden my hearts towards them. you brought it onto yourselves.

you deserve it.

hmm. the most interesting thing that happened todae was at the 3rd lang centre. there was this mock fire practice just in case the terrorists happened to bomb that place. prior to that i was like how-spastic-can-this-get, especially when that silly school is worthless. i mean. bomb something more "worthy" of bombing larh?? a school?? bleh. and if they bomb, they bomb the brains @ RJC, Hwa Chong JC, RI, RGS? why a 3rd language centre which has.. like a population thats half of any proper sec sch or jc?? lol.

but it was cool anyway. we managed to skip one hour of class instead of the 1 and a half promised by our sensei. sad. cos it rained at 3.00pm and the fire drill was supposed to start at 3.00pm. how ironic. in the end, we heard the alarm at 3.40pm and proceeded to the field across the road. as if the fire wouldnt burn the grass?? :X and great lengths they went to to show us there was fire. they got this cool "smoke maker" machine that spewed smoke.. hahaha. they shud use it more for dance competitions and visual effects.

then the police and civil defence and firemen were all called in. they even like surrounded the area with weird tape and the fire engine came in all the way. so spastic. throughout the entire time we were playing lateral thinking puzzles and qian4 bian3 wen4 da2 ti2. those kind of thinking puzzles with lame answers. it was quite funny. and yea. mingren (an express bugger lol) couldnt guess ANY of the puzzles we had. such a loser. =P

i'm gonna sleep early tonite. havent been sleeping well for the past few nites. will blog a longer blog tmr cos its choir AGM. not like i'm really looking forward to it. :S

my bolster fetish. i love bolsters. i used to have a little cuddly toy, it was a pillow, but somehow i transformed it into a bolster. it wasnt very big, it was the length of 2 palms, but slowly twisted it and it was separated into to balls of cotton, with a thin length of cloth in between. you know, like the shape of dumbells, except it wasnt so even. one blob was bigger than the other..

however, after sticking with me thru water and fire, thick and thin, cold and warmth, day and night, after like 10 million eons, my mother decided to cruelly throw that pillow into the pit of eternal damnation. from then on, i lost it. for good. i was sad. very sad. until the day i went fuyun's house and went into his room. i don't know why i never saw it when i slept on his bed the last time. maybe it was cos.. he brought it to thailand or italy with him?? :X

lol.. anyway, he lent it to me. and from then on, i fell in love with his bolster. it was long and thin just like my pillow and it smelled more or less the same. however his smelled cleaner and nicer. mine had a supposedly yucky odour but i thought it was so exhilarating to smell it and bite. lol. zing says that thats why people get married, for the love bites.. bleh. so painful. i dun wanna bite. :X

i profess my love for fuyun's little bolster. if u happen to wanna change owners, cos either he's too fat, smelly or ugly, u can always come look for me. i'll be more than happy to accomodate you on my same bed and treat u like my own.. my precioussss...

today was the first actual day of school after 2 weeks of commontests. as per normal. boring stuff. i was late for assembly. missed the bus at 6.58am, thus i was reduced to taking the bus at 7.15am. it's sad the way SBS manages the buses, but i decided that if i were to take the 7.15am bus, i would definitely be booked by the prefects at the gate. hence, i decided to do something i never did in my life, and till now i still do not know where i got my guts from. i didn't board the 7.15am bus, but waited, for 2 more buses, one passed at 7.20am (see the screwd up system?) and i boarded the one at 7.31am.

just as i predicted, i reached school at erm. 7.40am. after glancing at the gate, i realised that the silly prefect was still there, thus i crossed the road and walked down to the main gate. surprisingly there was nobody at the guard house. i sneaked in through the boarding complex and reached the dining hall. i was half expecting to be caught anytime halfway through, but miraculously i wasn't. it's either the inefficiency of the prefects or the slyness on my bit. i don't know. then i realised it was house meeting. benny and derek both didnt reply to my sms on wad assembly programme it was. hmmph.

then buckley happened to have their house meeting inside the dining hall. i dumped my bag outside the library and sneaked in. nobody realised. even pangwei from bayley was there. hahaha. thus i escaped unscathed. :X it was so horribly scary. i could feel the adrenaline and fear of being caught by a black-shoed freak. arrrgh. hahahaha.

lessons were boring. then i had dramafeste rehearsal until 6.30pm. it was so tiring and exhausting. skippin 3rd lang for dramafeste tmr cos it's a spastic fire drill. bleh. hope i'll be able to memorise my lines and i wont be so tired. maths and english homework to do.. ciao.

it sux that my post got deleted previously cos i pressed CTRL+X and copied this contents of the post. then i went to help someone with a command, and i happily pressed CTRL+C without remembering that my post was copied.. and *poof* it disappeared. and yihan called and talked to me for.. 1hr59minutes. *horrors* anyway, here goes what was lost and retyped.

the past 3 days of my life have been absolutely fun, fun and more more fun. i can't believe the amount i've spent over the 3 days. lets do the maths later, i'll talk abt what happened yesterday. we met in church at 4pm for worship practice and as per normal, i was early and the rest of the world arrived at 4.30pm. its trendy to meet up 30 minutes after the set time huh? i dunno.

after practising for 2 hours, unsuccessfully cos the first hour was spent doing nonsense and nobody was doing anything constructive, we decided to stop it cos we ran thru all the songs. and it was my first time as ban chang!! wowooowww.~! all the times i've been pianist and FINALLY *drumroll* reuben's banchang. =) great improvement. i shall train up more pianists and reuben shall sing more often. though i dun noe if i sounded good. hahaah.

then we left for Princess.Enormous.Glutton's (short form PEG) house. prior to that her dad already brought our sleeping bags to her house. so nice rite? =) then we went for dim sum dinner. ordered this gargantuan plate of wanton (one-ton) noodles and this silvery white ball of prawn and curry puff like thing with flour and prawn inside. quite nice. and it was good.

on the way to picking weixian up from the MRT station and coming back, shuxian happened to drop her handphone. then we were searching the entire field for that handphone but to no avail. sadly, i think someone picked up her phone because fuyun called the phone and got thru, but subsequent attempts failed cos the phone was switched off. zing was jokingly saying that we should have cursed that guy, but better not.. ahhaah.

shuxian throughout wasnt even crying or sad that she lost her phone. on the contrary, she was smiling after not being able to find it cos she "had an excuse to get a new phone". we were rolling our eyes and falling down. ahahah. HOW COME PEOPLE CAN DUN GET SAD WHEN THEY LOSE THEIR PHONES?? *puzzled*

we finally made it to pegs house, took a bus and watched Just for Laughs. it was horribly funny that the whole bus was looking at us when we laughed. apparently peg said i laughed the loudest. :X reached and walked a distance in. then i did the most spastic thing. i just stood and stared at a drink can in the middle of the road. the rest of the world followed. hahaha. :S wonder why? it was just a normal drink can.. diaoz.

we bathed and watched the quan ming ou xiang xing deng chang. some channel U sat nite 9.00pm Idol Search show. wasnt very interesting. no shuai ge or mei nu. :X huili was like "i find guys who can play piano very attractive" and i went "fei4 hua4, isnt there one sitting right in front of you??" lol.

we finally settled to bed. ok. i was supposed to get the big fat mattress cos i slept on the mattress 3 times in my life, thus naturally the 4th time should be mine, whereas a first timer by the initials of MJ (i shant name names) came and asked if he could have it. damn him. so smart. but nvm. being the kind, compassionate, gracious, magnanimous, big chested, lovable, cute smart etc etc me, i gave it to him.

well at least i got a nice smelling small bolster in exchange. thanks fuyun. hahaha. i really like that bolster cos it reminded me of my own. it had that same smell lor.. but it was thrown away by my mum like 4 years ago. so freaking sad.. arrgh. :(

huili suddenly popped by and invited me over for GIRLS TALK. ahahahah. weird. but nvm. girls talk has always been fun. girls are such interesting creatures. they can talk and talk and talk and talk AND still talk nonstop. like the more words they speak, the more commission they earn. hahaha. spastic example. however, while i went over, i was caught in the act, and was sent back to sleep. sad sad.

then potato didnt want to nei-ge nei-ge with me.. so sad. cos MJ not yet fall asleep, then we couldnt nei-ge nei-ge in front of little bois. otherwise we would pollute his little mind. rite fuyun? *wink wink*

after church todae at S11 when we were having lunch, i dunno how we got onto the topic, but we started talking about armpit hair. yaya. first was girls who dun shave, (which is horribly utterly disgusting not that i wanna look but yea its sick. personal experience) then it went to dyeing of armpit hair, then rebonding armpit hair and turning them into little cotton balls where u die them with different colour. next was gelling them like spikes and the most hilarious was about hanging ornaments on them during christmas. so u could go "we wish you a merry christmas" and happily , shocking the listening out of his wits. lolx.

hhm.. tonite i dun think i will be able to sleep early cos i slept for 3 n a halfhours after i came back from church.. 3.00-6.30. fridaes MUFTI day. dunno how u spell it. hope tomorrow will be a good day. amen.

take it up and put it down.
9:09 PM

Saturday, July 10, 2004

went to watch spiderman yesterday with Zing and Potato. i don't know, but it seemed like such an inspirational show. jotted down a few key phrases or slightly amended with the meaning still there, due to the fact that reuben never ever thought of memorising lines of a movie, so that i could reflect on my blog. =) oh. and it's supposedly a trend to write about expository stuff on blogs now. making those very argumentative and philosophical essays to u know, increase your standard of english and your perceptions of life.

One of the first lines that hit me, said by Doctor Ock. "Intelligence is not a privilege, but a gift." The dictionary defines privilege as the advantage or favour that only certain people have, thus having the element of exclusiveness. Yet the sad facts of life show otherwise. Who are the ones chosen for a basketball team. The tall guys. Who are the ones chosen to represent the country in Ms/Mr Universe? The good looking people. Who are the ones chosen to present at conferences. The eloquent speakers. Why then is not intelligence deemed as a privelege along with being tall, being good looking or eloquent?

With competition in every sector rising in the modern day society, people scamper for IT courses for upgrading, specialising more in certain areas just to be one scratch above. Everyone wants to be better than another? People go for night classes to study more, get their certificates to show that they have a certain amount of intelligence e.g. a Masters in Accounting, or a PhD in Social Sciences. Even pupils are screened to get into the Gifted Education Programme and EM1, EM2 or EM3. Thus I totally do not agree that intelligence is not a privilege. It definitely IS a privelege because it makes you better than someone else in the world. Much as many people say that intelligence is not the best factor in judging a person, face the hard facts of life. Ones a university graduate while the other is an O level certificate holder. Who would you choose.

Many people do not want to acknowledge the rights of those who are smarter than them. Is it not proven that they are much more intelligent? IQ tests? the way they talk? the mental abacus they have in their brain while making decisions? It is that clear-cut. Yet when all that the smarter ones require is an encouraging nod, and an acknowledgement for their achievements to spur them on to do better, all they receive is a bucket of cold water, wet blankets and soured relationships. No one wants to admit that people are better than them. But what about giving credit when credit is due? Who doesn't want to be encouraged? I reiterate, all that we want is an expression of encouragement. but never do we get it.

Instead, we usually get a rude "shut up larh" in our face, or their faces would turn black and speak with a sarcastic tone. On good days, we'll just be ignored. Intelligent or not, it wasn't ever our choice. Yes, it is a privelege definitely to be intelligent, but this privelege and gift must be used for the good of the people around. That's the true spirit of blessings. We are blessed to be a blessing to others.

"intelligence is a privelege and a gift to be used for the blessing of others"

take it up and put it down.
11:48 AM

Thursday, July 08, 2004

i'm so free everyday. i'm not thinking of going to school tomorrow. its a stupid lecture. its a boring NE lecture. arrgh. what do you expect out of a lecture from a Thamugi dunno what speaker of parliament. i'd rather sleep at home! plus, there arent any lessons. boring stuff. nothing to do until the weekend! i'm so excited abt the weekend.. sleeping over at someone's house.. dunno if it's a guy or girl yet. that stupid potato hasnt confirmed a shit with me. maybe hes too.. timid to tell his mum.

anyway, u noe what happened todae, i sat for my emaths paper and had a stupid mental block at the vectors question. theres goes my quest for fullmarks. underestimated the strength of maths teachers.. i thought that the paper would be easy. but i guess, now for me, its not the A1 that matters, its how high an A1 i can get without being careless. ARRRGH. silly silly.

and my favourite competition of the year is here. sadly i'm not in it. and NO. its not EURO 2004, no its not some CHAOS competition organised by NUS. its RMUN!!!! RAFFLES MODEL UNITED NATIONS CONFERENCE 2004!! woah. that was the funnest competition i ever had in my sec school life. oh man. *euphoric nostalgia floods into my cerebral hemisphere* WHY!!! WHY!!! Why does RI send only sec 3s! how come when i asked tang so many times she didnt send us again! WHY!~!.. oh man. i miss it.

i've got a few sec 3 frenz whom i noe inside, which makes it all the more fun. i noe like half the sec 4 RGS team. i noe the moderators of the conference from RJC, i noe the way things are done at the competition. i noe the sequence of speech. i noe how to write working papers, pass resolutions, call for moderated and unmoderated caucases. i noe EVERYTHING. but they don't send us. WHY!!

sigh. the world is unfair. it brings back horribly sour memories for me. maybe i'll join HISSOC. i made so many frens. there were frenz who paid for my haircut. frenz whom i mistook for backstabbing me. frenz whom i talk to over the net. frenz whom i shut out during the conference cos I, the great Reuben, representing North Korea's dear leader Kim Jong Il led a third world party bloc last year. i led them!! because i had so many great followers. i still remember.. sarah. weihan. liangyi. teja. paul lock. mouse. michael. matthias. jean. claudia. EVERYONE! we were such great frenz and enemies at the same time.

nvm. enough of these memories. no matter what i do, i can't go back in time for the memories. all i have. is a picture. a picture of us.. here it is:

take it up and put it down.
5:17 PM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

lol. fight fight. DUN fight larh! =) lalala. physics was so easy todae comparatively to last year's EOY paper. ok. last year's EOY paper was so hard compared to anything and everything else. you know as i sat for the test, our dearest limboon's words came floating into my mind. limboon btw was my sec 3 screwed up physics FT who loved throwing erasers. unfortunately i lost my gigantic eraser which was his all-time favourite. lol. still remember the parabola motion and his fights with our other physics teacher. ok i deviate.

anyway, as i was sitting thru the paper, i kept on hearing his voice echoing in my head and mind u that was what he said last year "you think the express teachers mr desmond tan and mr mark wee will set easy questions for your commontest? electricity killed the sec 4s last year..." then his sinister face popped up in front of me in my exam paper. lol. thank god i prayed yesterday for my physics and zing was praying for me too.. rite? =) ahhaha. and yes. thank god he answers prayers and the paper was easy. made me so paranoid.. :X

last paper is finished. actually there's emaths tomorrow. but i don't see how hard it can be. still havent asked benny and the rest if there's gonna be jap tmr. dun feel like going.. arrgh. but maybe the super hardworking 4R students will go. then i'll have to go as well. why can't we do what we did to the teacher? like make 4 students go and tell her that the rest thought there was no jap class, (like what we did last time. hee.) then she would cancel it.. quite cool. ri guys are so terribly mischievous. terrible.

looking forward to emaths paper tmr.. gonna slack and find out emaths is a piece of cake. aiming for at least 90%. pray hard. and i'll do well! god bless me.

take it up and put it down.
8:56 PM

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

i sorta like this one.. dunno why *shrugs*

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11:12 PM

hmm. everything's finished. or nearly done. physics tomorrow. e maths the day after. by tomorrow, everything would have been finished. cos i dun need to study for emaths. and wow. its a miracle my ri frenz actually visit this blog. esp benny. who happens to not have posted like for a million years.

BENNY! YOUR BLOG IS A STAGNATING POOL OF SMELLY VISCOUS LIQUID. JENHAN, YOURS ALSO!

oh yea. jenny's dream came true. i finally dreamt about him. i think was the day before yesterday. dunno why. i just dream and dream and dream. and it wasnt a coloured dream. it was a normal dream. okok. i lied. it was a coloured dream.. hahahaha!! no larh. i dreamt that jenhan was in this car and driving me to dunno where. i just rememebered his driving sucked like crap. hahaha. jenhan better not drive cars.

need revelations? come find reuben and he'll dream u a dream! =)

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12:52 PM

finally finished stuyding for my hist. came up to.. look @ my blog for a while. =) hahaha. chem and hist tomorrow should be okay lor. i'm not particularly worried abt either, i just hope i remember my acronyms for history tmr lest my essays gonna be destroyed. as for chemistry, more or less alright, unless like i forget all my stuff. which hopefully isnt possible cos i'm blessed. argh its 1220. and what am i doing? letting dear zing guess whose who from the sing to the dawn pic. theres weihan and benny inside. and shes sorta curious whose who.. ahahah. her comments.

exerpts:

Zing: The one on the extreme left standing up?
Me: you think he's the most shuai?
Zing: Hes the best looking among them.
Me: nope. thats daniel li. next guess.
Zing: what about the one in grey?
Me: no. thats derek chia.
Zing: you must give me some clue lar!
Me: ok. benny's chinese. benny's not very tall (i lie again) and doesnt wear specs (everyone doesnt wear specs except for zul and me in the pic)
Zing: the one pulling on your necklace?
Me: no! that guy's taller than i am! (refers to zhiwei)

Zing: Ok. now guess weihan. Give some clue...
Me: Hes tall. Hes not an actor.
Zing: Issit the one next to zhiwei?
Me: yup thats him.
Zing: he could have easily passed off as a jenhan or a benny or a jonathan (quek).

hahahaha. weihan? is that a compliment?? that i do not know.. ahahah. =)

take it up and put it down.
12:23 AM

Monday, July 05, 2004

wow. today was a fun day. a really really really fun day. it was so much crap yet so much fun. i can't believe it. i'm investing so much time in my friendships with my church mates because i know that these are the frienships which will last. friendships with primary school mates come to an end at primary 6. friendships with secondary school mates come to an end at sec 4, maybe beyond. but i know that my friendships with my church friends will last an eternity! amen!

let me recount the blessed memories we spent together. oh yes, if you haven't realised, although my capital letters aren't there, everything else is spelt in perfect english. nothing in "sms language" or informal writing that is used in MSN chat conversations. maybe except the "hahahaha" and "lol". this inspiration i got from zhaohan's blog saying that he hates people who write in lousy english. lol. maybe i should start writing in perfect english. is that more aesthetically pleasing to the eye? i don't know.

it started off at 8.15am. nothing interesting. fast forward to 11.00am! ok. Dino came this week again! *love clap for Dino* hahaha. if you don't know what does that mean, it's ok. join us more in our craziness and you'll know! =) we had solid praise and worship by zing. she's so talented. can sing. can pray. can make people laugh. can lead praise and worship. you are an esther for god! =) amen amen!

after that we played games organised by zhiyong. usual stuff. the corny bit was when each group had to advertise three products. one, a piece of toilet paper. two, an underwear taken from zhiyong's cabinet. should be clean from the smell. ahahahahah~! three, a sanitary pad (unused, thank goodness!) stolen from zing's cupboard probably. he was commenting that cannot open, later "lao4 hong1" in hokkien. so lame.

we played other stuff, then broke for lunch. after lunch we had to come back to practise for youth sunday worship. zing and da simin are ling changing next week. (that word wasn't perfect english but it's acceptable in SNJB terms.) we were practising a song "heaven in my heart". it's quite a good song, except that we lack singers. we can't hear the female bits.

zing if you see this, grab the microphone from the guy standing next to you, and you should know who he is. yes. him. grab it from him and don't give it to him. lol. oopsie. i make myself sound so bhb as if i can sing very well. and i'm holding on to a microphone. thank goodness i'm not standing next to you zing. and yes. grab it from polar bear and sing. i still remember the motto of Raffles Voices (ri choir) JUST SING IT~!

then we broke, and went to watch a movie. when we left lavender we hadn't decided what show to watch. it was a fight between spiderman and tuo2 qiang1 shi1 jie3. huili wanted the latter, whilst we preferred the former. so we walked to one of the cinemas in marina. it was in such a dilapidated corner that i thought we were going to be abducted the moment we left the escalator. the escalator was leading to a drug hideout or something?

when we reached, we realised that the show wasn't playing there. poor huili. so we decided to walk to Eng Wah Cinema next to the Rock. played a couple of mean tricks. we disappeared when zing was walking with dino in front and whilst she was walking with mingjun in front. it so happened that she whispered "dun stand there lest you get electrified by that little shuai ge" and i started the joke about her liking mingjun. dun kill me if you see this arh.

meanwhile throughout that time, i was irritating huili by repeating and translating every sentence she said in chinese. heh. i can be a chinese translator.. yay~! and throughout the day, everything i said was either targetted at huili or zhiying. hope you girls don't mind okay? my mouth is ALWAYS like that. shooting off before my brain can actually send nerve impulses through the million synapses. argh ok enough said.

after reaching Eng Wah, we realised that they didn't play the show there and the next show for spiderman was at eight thirty PM. it was so sad that we decided not to watch a movie afterall. we then left for dinner because by then it was already 645pm. i remember the time because huili was commenting how fast the time passed. that was true. we spent so much time walking my thighs and calves are aching..

we had a romantic dinner outside the fountain at suntec. it was upstairs. we bought our dinner, some girls just ate chips. wow. i wonder how they survive on those, then they helped us to go to Carrefour to get drinks. we ate and talked about everything and anything. then when i looked down, i realised that there were these little ants on my long pants, stood up and flicked them off. decided to scare weixian and shuxian by shouting snake and weixian jumped up and screamed. hahahaha. really funny and comical.

then we decided to colonise mac donalds because it was getting hot and dark upstairs. even being the kind souls that we were, we didn't like being philantropists by feeding the mosquitoes. it was nasty. zing was cursing all the black ants and hoping they would die without reproducing. ahahah. really funny. and then we left for macs.

at macs we sat for nearly 2 and a half hours. wowee. we just talked. just sat there and chatted about so many things. and the bimbo was acting bimbo and they were taking photos of each other with huili's new phone. she was like. "stop wasting my battery" but the rest of us just didn't care two hoots and continued taking pictures. we were such. self lovers. narcissistic? lol.

zing was telling jokes about handphones. she gave an example: "Hi! This is starhub, may i HUB you?" so lame... and then i was saying that the customer would go "HUb!! I need HUB!! Hub!!" haaha. we were joking and laughing so loudly i think everyone was looking at us as if we owned the mac donalds at suntec.. hahaah. i wish. zing was saying we should organise a sleepover in church on christmas and have a midnight worship in pyjamas.

then last bit when we were thirsty, we pooled money to get a large coke. 9 straws in the thing.. nobody could remember whose straw was whose. but since zing was sick, she had her own straw. which she mixed with her saliva and put it back into the cup. no difference, but we'll be all hale and healthy amen~! and also, i was commenting huili was drinking from my straw because my straw was yellow and red. btw, ALL mac donalds straws are yellow and red.

then we left. because it was getting late and zing told mingjun's mom that we were catching a movie, which we were initially going to watch but didnt in the end and the "movie" was supposed to end at 8pm. by that time it was already 10 plus. wwwwahahahah. walked to MRT station with my already aching legs and i was so unfortunate as to have all the seats on the MRT koped by others. the moment i tried to sit, someone else sat in my place. god bless those people.

mingjun got off at the wrong stop. i was like "hey, wasnt that stop dhoby ghaut. isn't dhoby ghaut only 1 stop from city hall?" he ended up getting off at somerset and taking backwards. so sad. hope he didnt like lose his way. ahahahah. and dino got off at novena. i asked him where did he stay. he said within walkable distance from the mrt station. i was like "wah, isn't that where all the rich people stay? condo ah?"

his reply. i loved it. "no lah. private apartment." dang. so blessed. such a rich kid! =) lol. anyway, i hope that he will come next week. he'll be a regular in SNJB for many many years to come amen! =) i'm tired. thats all i'll say. i reached home, bathed and am talking on msn to my church mates.. hahaha.

take it up and put it down.
12:10 AM

Saturday, July 03, 2004

Yay! Zhihua has WENDY CLARK. It is so nice of ACSI students to aid their RI counterparts in these troubled times. Rarely do you see such nice people around anymore. hahaha. Argh. need to get back to mugging soooon.

take it up and put it down.
5:34 PM

arrrgh. such a shitty day todae. i realised that i lost my wendy clark. and the pt is i dun even noe WHEN i lost it or WHERE i lost it. must have been school but i studied it for the last test on Cold War.. couldnt have been before that. cos i was still mugging it. looks like i've gtg get a new one. shit waste money again. and it doenst have all the highlighted portions. so difficult. but for the sake of history and my CT results.. i'll have to. :X

oh. i had a peculiar dream todae. i dreamt of this someone. and it was a horribly sick dream larh. maybe my fantasies.. ahahahahah. :X i didnt feel like waking up. i really didnt. what i did in the dream was too good to be true. but it was a naughty dream. not a good one. sigh. is indulging in naughty dreams sinful? like i was able to do what i couldnt do in real life to this particular someone. sigh. cant say the name..

i dunno. i feel bad. it was a bad dream. but i didnt want the dream to end, because i noe that thing will NEVER happen in real life. a dream is but a dream. but i really admire that person. but some things just. cannot be done. its not right. its not right. temptation from the devil.. arrgh. how smart can he get by tempting me in such a lustful dream. but it was good while it lasted. now its all gone... *infatuated*

THUS SHALL YE THINK OF ALL THIS FLEETING WORLD? A STAR AT DAWN, A BUBBLE IN A STREAM, A FLASH OF LIGHTNING IN A SUMMER CLOUD, A FLICKERING LAMP, A SHADOW, AND A DREAM...

...there is nothing more that i can say that you'll want to hear Dawan.

take it up and put it down.
3:44 PM

Friday, July 02, 2004

the hardest day of commontest is already over. what can i fear? what am i afraid of? NOTHING. precisely. i'm afraid of nothing.. geog todae was ok.. wasnt too easy or too difficult. if with my kind of lousy studying i can say that it was ok, it means that it is a rather easy paper. but i guess, i'm rather good at geog. so it was a moderate paper.. ahhahaha. anyway, yak was rite. the mock paper was commontest standard. i wrote till my hands dropped off.. well. at least i completed. but i dunno, cos some i wrote quite little points. i await my marks.

as for bio.. it was rather ok also. some people were arguing dunno what red:white flower ratio should be 3:1 and not 50% each. but i didnt see how that affected the final answer which didnt even refer to that bit. aiyar. some people just love to correct the papers. and geog had a glaring typo. "to what extend to you support that statement" lolx. but bio had a weird question. as per normal first question of section B was on the fermenter. it happened in last year's EOY bio paper, last year's COMMONTEST paper, and this year's commontest. bio teachers just LOVE fermenters at the front page.

yup. i'm going with huili and zing to rock tonite i think.. =)

take it up and put it down.
2:23 PM

arrrgh! i wanna scream!! i'm magnificent and great! i solved the great "petals around the rose puzzle." muhahah. that puzzle puzzled bill gates for 2 weeks. the magnificent me, yours truly solved it under 10 minutes in 5 tries. woweeee. and its.. at 12am now.. and its my geog and bio commontest tomorrow. and i'm up solving spastic lateral thinking puzzles. god bless my soul. petals around the rose.. enjoy

courtesy of wenwei.. i solved everyone in under 30 sec except for the last one. double star for its difficulty. post answers on my tagboard.. lolx

* A boy has as many sisters as he has brothers, but each of his sisters has twice as many brothers as she has sisters. How many boys and girls are there in the family?

* A man and his sister were out walking together one Saturday morning. The man pointed across the street to a boy and said: ‘That boy is my nephew.’ The woman replied: ‘He is not my nephew.’ Can you explain this?

* Two Russians walk down a street in Moscow. One Russian is the father of the other Russian’s son. How are they related?

** What gets wetter as it dries? (you use it everyday)

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12:21 AM

Thursday, July 01, 2004

didnt blog last nite cos i was too tired. and had to study anyway. heres the schedule of papers i'm gonna take. so all of u should help me pray.. lolx

Fri (2/7)
1. Biology
2. Geography

Tue (6/7) YAY! i love tuesday! my favourite subj.
1. Chemistry
2. History

Wed (7/7)
1. Physics

Thu (8/7)
1. Emaths

i took A Maths and SS today. A Maths was rather... disturbing. i thought i did well. i thought i would do well. yet, for some unforseen reason, i found it difficult to complete. when the teacher shouted "time's up", i had left 2 questions blank because i didnt know how to do them! and one was worth 6marks, the other 8marks. both were left COMPLETELY blank. and the paper was upon 80.. which means that i have 5 marks to deduct (because i left another answer blank minusing one more mark) before my A1 flies away.

but i guess, i wont be losing that 5 marks because i was not careless and i prayed. dang. i forgot to pray before the paper.. no wonder larh. SS was chicken. Tang was saying yesterday on the revision on "How important is ..." questions. And that happened to be the first question that came out in my two structured essays. well. not that difficult though i think many people screwed up as Tang predicted yesterday in my class.

The question was "How important was the United Nations in maintaining international peace and security?" According to her, the interpretation should be either u support or not UN was impt, then give alternative factors that MAINTAIN INTERNATIONAL PEACE. many guys didnt do that, they were showing support or not support without alternative factors.. i don't really know what will happen..

though i remember very clearly that she mentioned we MUST include alternative factors otherwise will stay at L3 only. hmm. well i mentioned that UN was impt, but there were alternative factors also. i guess i'm safe. i've smsed her.. only that she hasnt replied yet. wonder the verdict.. i should be correct. my SS has always been good. hahaha.

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12:35 PM

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